gracious angel

Focus the key to all

2007-01-07T23:42:00.000+08:00

Hey peps.. start of a year.. planning time.. yea thats what u hear, planning time. okok.. down to wat really matters.. wat are my goals.. for the real hard world vision i drive myself to.
1) enjoy the time i have with every single one of all my friend, espicially the special some1.
2)pave my way towards 3 career prospective, so all other offers out of the way.
-Film Art production
-Army
-Hosting or Co-hosting
all my peps and friends out there who knows of anyone in the above few industry can let me know, i need to start planning for my PP le or otherwise known as Professional Profiling. yea, get it done fast and move on real quick to concentrate on school work without a burden to carry
3) go to the gym 3 times a week, mon, wed fri, wed to clementi sports hall at night and mon and fri by myself. gotta start looking successful to be successful. sorry if this is all boring.. yea.
4)Get a PDA by hook or by crook at the end of this year at least.. open to presents of this anytime..haha..
5) Get a part time job that will propel me into one of the 3 career prospective that i will want to head towards
6) Be the best i can be in all, word or deed, to friends, to working mates and even my superior including team leaders, captain, coach, facilitators espicially.honor comes from those who mind to shut their crap and listen objectively.

for this to come to past, i will upload it as a picture by hook or by crook by 3rd week of january. promise.

2006-12-25T01:43:00.000+08:00

haven felt like updating cuz i felt no purpose to and finalli i found onli 1 purpose for blogging again.. to spread ideas which can alter destiny.. nothing else..
so yea, read jocelin post and was thoroughly inspired and fuel my passion of 1 thing, push on for the excellence of God no matter what. so often we wants a result we push awhile but once a big mountain stand in front of us, we fail to see wat is directly behind. the fuel never to give up is now my quote and i will use it again and again. Salvation is not an issue which is plainly for the reason to telemarket, more ppl under u means more honour, that is a wrong goal! it is an issue of making sure u care and seriously this Christmas shook me up on this. Seeing a poor man with a tin can or a cup, selling tissue paper or even playing a tune, we dispise them, drop in our change or juz have compassion and do a bit. ppl lets go juz beyond that, it is not abt juz making sure that we are light, but more rather, do we realli care. we always in our mouth the tune that we care and stuff, but we dun realli are caring. we bring ppl in to attach them on bringing friends under the same "curse", to me it is a wrong ambition from the start which goes on and on and is not realli being a friend but an enemy. A vast amount of ppl are not reaching out cuz of 2 reasons, my needs are not met or i dun see a point. for those with needs left unmet, dun tell me u are onli gg to reach out when God comes through totalli for u.. cuz by then u r in the heaven sitting on some soft little cloud, u r no longer in the world, how to affect it? for those who say no point, what were u looking for? love aims to give and if u haf the key to unlock life over death and u withhold it, their blood will seriously be on your hands. mani ppl will say that these are your basics, but are you living it out? that is the point..

blog revamp

2006-10-30T23:00:00.000+08:00

hih. i think i need to revamp my blog... as i find that i should write an extract of what i pray about everyday to get me back on track to pray... so yea.. dun worrie.. i will still give updates on important things which is happening like RexaZ performing at Argora on Fri at 1230pm! and yea sun at woodlands at 230pm.. so yea if ya wanna like noe this kinda stuff, i will still put. the prayer thing is to get me back on track of prayer and also to let people know about my issues. cuz if u noe me, i am a person who dun usually tell ppl that i nid their help, but i trust their instinct and our friendship for so long to figure out something is wrong, and for God to push them to let me know what is wrong and for God to let them be understandin in his place. so yea.. short as compared to anything i have written.. but if ya wanna know juz leave it in my tagboard and i will b more than willing to let ya noe about it.. cuz i dun want like all the ppl to noe my new URL as this may cause conflicting stands to my prayer. as i said, it is MY prayer..lol.. haha.. hope that this is well received.

the past comin back

2006-10-27T14:40:00.000+08:00

Having gone through the past month of hell, I think I should spit all the things out. Since I dun care what the negative comments as how you get worst if you already been through the worst yourself. The worst is not someone criticizing about it, but for people to totally ignore it. Since communication is the key of life, why bother worrying about how other view me already when their comments are comments to make me grow. Thanks for all the positive comments. People I would like to thank all before I start writing this again are as follows in order of importance; Ariel, Jocelin, Ling Ling, Sarah, girls from w34f like Huishi and Raidah. If you are a moron reading my blog, well all of them are girls. See the idea; it is sometimes true that guys are just interested in taking care of solving a problem instead of listening to the whole story. Guys are more interested in getting in solved and move on. This tells you a lot about me, for 1 thing, I listen to things like sermon and take it in real quick.

First thing first; knowledge. A lot of people think that just because you know a truth you will be compelled to live it out. Okok let me ask you, how many times your mom said not to touch the hot kettle, or not to run in the train for fear and the truth you will fall down. Then some people say that they are just childish so that’s why they do not listen to wise counsel. But remember that Lucifer also disobey God not because he is stupid or a dumb blonde that he does not know his place in the kingdom, neither is he a foolish man who rise up in rebellion. The most foolish people are people who do well for the sake of doing it or as it is their only choice. Only the wise is considered by people who knows both side the consequences before their eyes. You made a wise decision when you know that one benefit one more than the other or it appeal much better than the other, not when you do not know how to react and react the fastest and easiest way or people who do not have a choice and it is the only thing available. In short, people who react due to things like not having the knowledge of it or even force into a decisions by all things are what I classify as dumb or foolish. So don’t say that I am just dumb and I chose a wrong choice out of a wrong mindset. I knew it in my heart and mind that it appears the most beneficial to me. For the Word to be effective as a form of encouragement, one who delivers it must make sure that it is done in a way of relational issue and not just sharing knowledge. In Joshua, the 10 spies returned and told the truth, not a single lie. But the other 2 returns not because they wanted to lie, but as the relationship between a nation of God and the Almighty is based in their hand, so that’s why they say that it could be done. So before you share anything in the name of God with all respect to all cell group leaders and messages, it is not the message that you get every week that you must share to your members. Make sure that your members are equipped to handle that stage. There is no point in telling your cell group about things like gearing up to building fund when you know that your cell group is not ready to go and give. Then people will say things like giving and you will move on with God, yeah it happens sometimes but as Pastor Say, God is not dumb. Science has proven that if you are forced to make a decision in a stressful environment you will lessen you humanity. So if God is that clever, He will not keep forcing the stressful environment on you so that you will be more beneficial in His kingdom. Imagine that the whole group of Christian dies as the fact that their difficult circumstances are “cured” and that’s why they are not effective in cell group and not reaching. Sometimes doing the right thing is just aint doing the right thing. Doing things to rectify the issue like having cell group outing and also making sure that the cell group bond more than just bringing in more people that you know will not be the effective in integrating. As the word say, the weakest is the strength of the body. If your cell group members are weak in bonding with Christians in your group and also become so cold towards each other problem, then what in your mind tells you to push it on? I will stop here as you can see my intention and you should know the arguments that will follow this path.

Next relationship. The affairs of the heart is the hardest to handle as you should all know, if not go get yourself educated. It is one thing to say that you want a person for you to love. It is not the fuzzy feeling, but it is about the thing called love. A fuzzy feeling can be sensed to be a crush if you know too well and went through it many times. But when you get hooked on a person, I have come to realize what I want to look for in a girl in my future. I “fall” in love not for the sake that I will move on and tell people that I have a sense of humanity and I love beauty. But it is more of discovering characters that will make it a person you will see yourself spending time with for the rest of your life, fulfilling all the dreams now for both of you and the visions for the both of you for the rest of your golden ages. It is easy to say that you are being unequally yoked by all this and it is time to leave it behind, it is a crush etc. but let’s see about this. Firstly, my first crush happens in primary 5 where I like this girl for her gorgeous voice. I mean, she could be Britney spears without the cover. So much so that when it came out that I like her, the week following that we accidentally exchanged a kiss. To me, it was the memory I can’t get rid for the rest of my life and I don’t need a Manasseh to do it either. I like it that way that I know I gave my first lip-lock away accidentally when she was dashing for the door and I happen to turn around. It was like 4 whole seconds before I came back to reality and also before she left the area around my table and vowed most likely to herself never to talk or see me again. It is like a violated her and then I said sorry I have urges too. It was in the middle of the day and that was my first rejection my whole teenage life where my hormones kick in. wanting to grow up fast, I followed my class male trend. Get an oily face and grow some manly hair and also some much awaited muscle. So that explains what plunge me even deeper into low self-esteem; people who are judged according to how they look. Next is WanXin, Jocelyn, Shi Ying in my secondary school class. Though I never admit it and only do so now, wanxin was a person who really listen, for Jocelyn and shi ying, they were people who stuck by when the going got tough and also are very pretty in my sense. Shoulder length rebond or very straight hair which they are willing to leave long if not for fashion disaster on Jocelyn or school rules like NTSS. Next, it was Joanna, a cell group member I suspect left church to avoid me. It was then that I brought my best friend to church and when my cell group couldn’t sustain me and transferred me out of my cell group to Veronica Tang Sub-zone. It was during this period that I faced my first rival in love, trying to chase the same person but always giving way as I think I should as he is my friend and he admitted first to me that he liked her. Call me foolish and childish but if boys fight over a girl of his dreams, only the true knight in shining armor will be left standing if it is true. I got to admit one thing, we just click so well. She was in NPCC, I was in NCC. We sms each other during school and when she got my mug, she would know that I was drifting away from lesson and thinking about her. As always, all girls love to be pampered and looked to as a treasure and thus after buying for her my first present for her; the relationship went deeper, all with doubt that it will not last when he was in my life as well as hers. Soon, she found it irritating to talk to her during class and also I totally lost contact when she changed phone with her sister and more likely or not had told her sister that a friend of hers has become a stalker. He will not give me the number and this was one of the breaking point for me in my life with him and the primary reason I didn’t follow up well on him. He was almost integrated when I let go and let him slip back in. when people fail to listen to your grieves, you will totally let go of all you both shared. I stopped playing TCG with him when we switched class in sec3. Though I still see her 2 more times at her aunt shop which is quite near the neighborhood, I find that I should leave her life like a leave which drop to the ground. She is attached and I wish her the best in that relationship and also that she will leave this behind or has left this behind and never turn back because I am a guy who is not worthy of you. Always so willing to hear and willing to just be there to spend quality time with just brightens up my day to see you smile when you are with him. Same for someone else I know recently. I will not step in the way and chase what I know I can’t get or is unhappy and will make more people unhappy. I have learnt from Bill Goldberg that I rather hurt myself than I let my friends share the sorrows and get discouraged or even start questioning about it. If I let you see this it means that I have allowed you to be hurt or you have push me to a point where if I don’t tell, I am afraid I will hurt you more. The polytechnic stuff lets leave it out.

it is too late

2006-10-08T00:35:00.000+08:00

it has been ages since i blog, no apparent reason to carry on either eh? too much has happened that makes coming here a chore already and i am here to post my final post to this web. no one seem to care, every1 is bz wif their own life that i slip them by like a shadow, unimportant, unnecessary and totalli optional. i dun even regard myself as a person anymore, but an observing apparation who sees things which are happening to me and juz totalli stop existing. im sick and tired of making a difference when i know i dun at all. not that i haf found bad companies and critics haf come in to rot my soul. more like people i haf allowed close to my life due to 'long-lasting' friendship has let me down too much, it is to a point where i no longer find it even normal to be myself, i have different people i get around wif and wif it i carry a different character. if u haf worked b4, ya boss would have said, dun let ya personal life get involved in your job. i am living 4 lives in my life now; a son who goes to church, a classmate who is always there to hype up the class, a worker at a pathetic company who juz doesnt seem to be able to get things right n a cheerleader who knows that he cant get who and what he wants at all as he knows it is all beyond his reach. for those who will see this post, let it serve as a reminder, friends needs you not in the gd times, but ya words and ya actions makes a difference in the tough times. for me, friends haf come and all haf gone, i dun even find one i can confide my life into now without a sense of security that he/she will hear me out and encourage. it is to a point that i tell ppl in order to punish myself for stupid downright dumb mistakes i used to screw up my life. it is gone it is over, onli a miracle can help me now n dun even mention the J word in ya encouragement. i feel wat the heck? if i cant even be healed by him, how else those friends of mine will. it is not that i dun wanna do the reach out, it is the fact that i noe that ppl who come will ended up like me, stuck in a cycle to get ppl to join a club than comin for healing and encounter. i can make it on my own, but it will stray me away. who cares? i dun make a difference to any1 at all in my mental sense. i am juz a physical object that people nid, not a mind for ppl to commune to .

i feel weighted down from all sides, ppl look up to me for help but i cant b any shit help if i cant even handle myself. i will juz end up hurting more and more ppl. leaders look to me to rise up and take the baton and carry it on, but i juz dun seem to get there. be it some belief that i can make it, i m sorrie to say i haf been an actor for a show; acting so that ppl accept me and for affirmation that i can do smt great for them but juz that i am not fit for the role. i haf acted for 10 years and boy, is it the longest drama u ever saw, u haf seen me cry, u haf seen me laugh. but all i haf was an expression of things which i am unable to supress, feelings that juz wouldn't go underground. n now all the shitty religious will say what u heard u haf not apply. speak for yourself and look at yourself, u cant fit the role either.

2006-09-12T22:59:00.000+08:00

Yo this is tooo gd not to blog..haha.. click the pic pls.. cuz blogger dun allow veri big pic.. haha.. so happie thank God for it.. put up the picture of today quality lunch tomo:)

041006

2006-09-04T21:36:00.000+08:00

this post is the most significant so far, the 100th post i haf for this address and also the first post i m gg 2 upload after KL emerge 06. it was realli totally amazing, so great that it needed 67 pixs to discribe it! haha. ok it was a hectic time in Kl and i shall start no later than this sentence.

Day 1
it was a cool time in the bus even though the pics taken is like so little.. lol.. cuz alot of things veri common; all is dull in the bus, every1 sleeping in the bus.
1st new friend i met on the bus; Sandy! haha.. if i not wrong is Eugene zone member rite?
Eugene posing with the food.. lol.. he and i r the onli person awake in the bus.. but later he gave in also.. haha.
My own food platter .. haha.. it was realli nice. dun be decieve at how common it looks.. pack a punch ok all the food!
lol.. sleeping beauty in the sun? haha.. wateva.. this is like taken 10 or 15 min after the bus stop at the checkpoint
all the peps at the back of the bus.. sighs.. so sleepy yet sooo willing to take pics.. thank you guys you rock!
the pic of the bus! so big.. some ppl somemore mistake it to be a airplane seat.. so cool eh?

ok after the long and boring trip we were like to book into hotel and stuff.. so we reach ard 12plus.. then we haf till 4pm to eat, bathe and free and easy.. this phrase is soo common in this mission trip as it is not to allow us to stand there waiting for things to be done!? haha. coolness the way Bro Jimmy puts it.
food like singapore.. LJS! haha.. so funnie lor.. we like all agree actually to eat smt different for all the days in KL but still.. i miss Singapore! haha.
the picture we mistook for. it is totally mango ppl and no it is not for self service. cool ar. one of the best pics i think:)
the amount of chairs in the hall.. the background has all the dedicated ppl fixing up the stage.. big and powerful ppl, ppl that guys would go; wow! soooo nice body! they move the stage platform from one side of the stage support bars to the other by sliding it across their back.. coolness sia! and no, it is not light at all ok!
the hotel we stay at, mmm! so tall and magnificent building lor.. fell in love with this Ancient Egyptian feel of the hotel.. but instead of the dog lying on its stomach with its chest and face forward, this has a lion to replace it.. show u below.
the ever beautiful theme park.. i think the theme park is as big as my school campus lor.. realli huge man! the centre is a pyramid.. coolness.

Day 1 went so fine that i realli got to say 1 thing, Great is our God and greatly to be praised. it was mainly preparation for the tue to thurs conference.. so yea.. lots and lots of free time to shop!

Day2
the best table i see for an attribute table stand! so big and broad! wow.. and the red cloth to lay over makes it so high-class!
then we have hunger strike for unique food! A&W! so cool sia.
the ever admired Root Beer.. amybe some SK dun even noe there existed this restaurant in Singapore. finish it wif the hotdog.. de---licious!
the bear of A&W. so cool and so fat? is it a sign to warn excessive compulsive eating will result the effects of the bear? haha.
the sama sama story.. half full or half empty? haha..
it was a great nite to kick star an event on the whole and the best part! we haf a performance by the Strikeforce! wow! so cool man! too bad was outside so cant take any pics of them.
the KL ppl learning the things of prophesy! so cool..we can teach them in such a short time.. buck up all SF members.. we haf competitors! haha.
so alert even at the wee hours of the morning. and yea.. she is realli good at playing that. no mistake i hope for the actual performance!
all four of the brothers in the prophesy beat.. with a metronome.. striking for perfection yea!
the coolest cluster there.. south! so cool their shirt.. i promise a few ppl this pics.. hope ya like it!
the most lamo sign i saw. i was like.. dun pay at counter pay where sia.. lolness.. pay my friend for the food in 7-11.. hmm..
redbull with less sugar! soo cool. for the peps with a sensational taste of drinking redbull but dun want the damn sweet taste!
the malaysia trade. the steamboat in the truck on a stick. the uncle supa funnie.. dun worrie, all clean one.. i noe your visitors always scared this not clean that not clean, dun worrie la. my company distribute give me 10 years already. no case of food poisoning one la. haha. but seriously cheap the food at this store. red stick which includes red meat and other stuff is 1.50RM!
the way they cool the food by putting ice there.. ingenious sia!
wow! so cool.. this is how you cook it.. the pan is oiled stained not rust or dirt..pls!

wow man.. i feel soo tired.. sighs.. i slp first.. tomo then i continue.. haha

bored

2006-08-28T00:42:00.000+08:00

You scored as Theater. You should be a Theater major! Like a bohemian actress, you are seasoned and confident and not afraid to express yourself!

Theater

100%

Dance

92%

Philosophy

92%

Mathematics

83%

Journalism

83%

Engineering

75%

Chemistry

75%

English

75%

Sociology

67%

Linguistics

58%

Psychology

58%

Biology

50%

Anthropology

42%

Art

33%

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28-aug-06

2006-08-28T00:16:00.000+08:00

this day has arrived. in less than 7 hours.. i will b on my way to Sunway Lagoon for KL emerge conference 2006, the first and largest youth conference for KL. i find that it is a privilege that God has called me to attend and to open the floodgates for more to come. so yea seem kinda sad even though im actually looking forward to going KL. i scared for stupid reasons. scared that i might be motherland-sick; all the supa nice food in s'pore. the bz rush hours i hate, the time spending to waste time on my own and end up bothering ppl cuz they having their exams. the Cheerleading prac, the class chalet, the ppl in church, the family at home, the... u get the idea. wateva is located in S'pore i miss..both the gd and the bad. sighs. and it is onli for 5 days.. will be back for svc, cell group, etc.. its juz like going to sch juz that i see lesser familar faces and even less familiar areas. dun worrie.. bro luke has kindly lend me his mini SD card and thus will take loads of pics for ppl who wanna noe lots abt Emerge KL 06. so tired yet too excited, wat to do. blog lor. sighs. even my exam results also not out yet..
i think that the verse, dun worrie abt tomo, cuz today haf soooo mani suprises in stored to think abt tomo. anyway change of topics.
well svc was realli awesome man! it was like so fast and yet meaningful. the thing the most ppl dun noe abt; link back to Dr A.R Bernard sermon- New info, processed in renewed mind-> new thought, new actions, new habits, new behaviour, change of destiny! and back to mind again. so yea.. SEX has been thought to be a sin for married couples and it is a dirty thing that couples nid to continue to chuan shou jie dai.. yea means carry the family line on. nope! having kids due to SEX should be the last purpose of SEX as if it is considered the first, then the wife is juz a factory for human production and husbands will juz be ppl who provides the resources for it to happen. no! wrong mindset! SEX is 3/4 for helping a married couple and onli 1/4 to benefit the community at large through the birth of one new kid. it is for bonding, for expression of love and for pleasing each other. yea u heard it pleasing each other! it is not true that u cant please your partner through SEX as most ppl think that u r actually pleasing your own lust. true! but if u please your soul mate, u r effectively protecting yourself from lust by promoting love to your partner. so yea. short post but should be powerful enuf till i post again after i come back from KL.. pls pray for all the peps over there; espicially the Pastoral ministry and oso the P&W leaders to educate, encourage and empower the local church there to haf their own youth revival and also to trust God for finances in their new building.

2006-08-23T10:22:00.000+08:00

okok sry haven posted in like i dun noe.. been realli bz.. ok first to the tue Monday outing at pepper lunch:)

3 bdays, 20+ ppl, 1 place, wat will happen?!
okok so when we reach was like no space.. so we sat bhind the cosy corner for the couples one, but cuz we were a crowd it looks like we all waiting to see doctor..haha.. imagine.. then we started talking abt pigs getting killed and no way to turn around, then Dear bro Darren decided to add dota inside.. " then later instead of the sharp piercing device, they ask Sand King, burrowstrike, then epicentre.. wah pig killer!!
ok on to the first pic:

so shocking faces, i took it in candid. haha. not my tablethough..

close-up candid, onli cal saw me taking.. lol.. the rest like fellowship of the TRP!! rock on!
now personal shots at my table onli haf 1

Cool bunch of peps..lip smacking gd food:)

ok back to the main reason for gathering; bday! so on to the bday celebration
lets start things on a high note, since all dun mind drinking milk, we got a litre of milk and 3 of them share. Da Jie Grace first

haha.. she supa shock when she saw the bottle lor:)
next, Cal my sis wif horns?

Free endorsement for Dutch Lady:) cool?

junCen rabbit? eh Glenn wrong hand action la!

another endorsement for Dutch Lady! Cal your proposal for Dutch Lady Endorser is competed by Bro JunCen!

Unglam pic of Cal! haha.. say dun upload i still do..haha..!see the milk coming back to her, huh?
still so much leh!

lets say grace! no la.. wah JunCen so serious.. hmm?grace, concentrate on the cake, make it move!

Cake after Cal face went into it, compliments of Jackie! haha.. cant realli see it flatten..haha!

Cal after she saw the NUM bag! wah.... she crying lor..haha. hopefully it is big enuf for everything sis!

huh? secret present by gwen in the bag haf a top! wah!-said juncen!

pose wif your presents!

Which camera taking us? this or this?haha

Post wif bday cards!!

see juncen gif speech oso cry.. dun worrie bro! we will always luv u.. dun cry!

ok sis and bro group pic haha TRP rox man! this was a great event thanks to gwen and Junwen! all thanks to them*applause*

next is the Shangri-La hotel stuff.. wah.. so fa in the place it took me 40 min to reach the hotel from orchard!

The Strikeforce in the marketplace.. striking up a storm! wif the General all wrapped up.. haha
Spoof pic of Levi.. broken glass eh!

finally, Rexas is up! yippy! all the way Rexas!

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2006-08-19T00:20:00.000+08:00

so close yet so far. lot of stuff to do but yet haf time for the most expensive sermon i ever heard.

Seriously, Dr A.R. Bernard Sermon today can be worth at least 10k per person! this is due to his fact that he teaches lots of things ranging from specified success to garantee success in the top notch companies but also about self. i mean after what he preach on through the spirit it realli say hey! that is what i haf been needing in this year. i find that God's call of postponing an event is for a greater season to open up the floodgates of heaven to pour in a big one for the church. i am however, not saying that other Pastors preaches nonsense but basing on the things he touched on today, the things that God has revealed to him gives him an affirmation without a shadow of a doubt about one thing, he is like a Adviser to the Previous President George Washington for a comforter as a friend for not no apparant reason. see? even the fact that i usually talk in poorly broken english has improved due to this man instilled knowledge of how sometimes placing you somewhere is not abt being a salvation hungry predator waiting for someone to fall flat on his face and happily walked up to him and pick him up juz for the sake of Christ? No! We are placed in the market place to be a blessing not a abuser of opportunities. Due to the properly structure God had planned on lessons like appreciating the Heavens and a magnificant creation which man has yet to solve due to the main course that it has reached a dead-end where it cant be satisfied and it is the path to God that will satisfy it now. he planned it to understand that specifics and relativity is so important to God. lets me explain

God created u in a specific way yea all of your know that but it is reduced to just mere physical feature and how we react in our feelings. but it is much more. just think of the things which happened unconciously; things like how fast you will grow by in terms of height, mass, knowledge, physical things like hair growth! it is made in such a way that it will serve its purpose. imagine that Samson hair too like 20 years to reach a normal back length of the collar. imagine that God say oops.. i forgot that he muz grow his hair fast. ok now all we can do is wait. Sighs. and 20 years go by and finally when he is able to push the pillars at an age like 50 and because of the slow growth, he took it till he is like 65 years old. he will die pushing the pillar by a bit cuz his bones would have grown brittle if God didnt substain his body for an incredible feat like this after his eyes are put out. God is still working on you even when other parts of you are not doing well. take me for an instance. in the midst of facing knowing who i really am and what i can really do for my BOSS, God blessed me with the role of helping my leaders to pass simple yet important messages to my fellow CG and SF members. i can safetly say that most people will backslide due to the intense pressure but however God made me this way that until the pot of my life breaks, i will not lose it on Him as he put a substance called i have sown too much to regret now and i am sure it will happen! in the midst of my own trouble i can benefit my class as one of the most eloquent and intelligent student not because of what i have learnt but by the thing that God created me different from some people in my class; great perception skills. some people do not perceive, some perceive it badly and others perceive it in the right way. he imprinted that in my manufacture before i was born and due to the family culture i grew up in, i automatically took on perceiving as it is a daily routine in my family but God created me different as i took a change at a young age to Christ and thus my perception became better! i know if i carry it on here, it will realli become my longest post but i will not do it yet. i would like to post the Joke of the Night by the man himself tonight

A Christian girl was sitting at the back of the classroom getting very irritated by the teacher who did not believe in Christ and was evidently rubbing it in. She was in the class of Ocean wildlife on whales.
Teacher: it is physically impossible for a whale to swallow a man, lease say he will survive in there.
Girl: Ask Jonah!
Teacher: as i said, it is PHYSICALLY impossible for a whale to swallow a man!
Girl: i will ask Jonah when i get to heaven!
Teacher:( irritated) what if Jonah is not in heaven?
Girl: then you can ask him in hell!
hahaha.. lol man

16 aug

2006-08-16T12:51:00.001+08:00

You mean everything to me
You're all this world will never be
Your name reigns in my heart
You're all that i depend on

The song thank you never fail to push me up again. this time, if you haf read my previous post you will know that i was really what people called down and out. but yesterday nite PM was great. Pst Derek talked abt using tongues as a language to express words without words for it. it just have the feeling that God that is wat i mean but not in english. This feeling i having now is described in english as void but it is more than tat. this post doesnt mean i am ok already; just that i rather spit this things out here than on friends i noe.. cuz not all friends u meet are ready for this kinda confessions. so if u read and it is too much for u than u beta leave; dun say i nv warn your.

When praising God seems like lifting the world on your bicep,
that is when the real aroma of praise rise.

it really happen during PM yesterday, most of your will like huh? u so not doing well go there to leech only lor. true to a large extend. i wasnt really praising i was stoning during prayer meeting. it was such a time that never happen at all. i just wanna sleep but i felt i needed to do something than sleep so i went even though i wasnt expecting me to pray much. it turned out that it was helpful to a certain extend. i can enter worship, not sleep but praisings seem too much.

2006-08-14T22:44:00.000+08:00

Bored? nope. Frustrated wif life? Yeah hell yeah! Life was starting to pick up but my real purpose is still not right- God is not in the centre of it. ok those ppl who want to rebuke me now pls folo this line: Why u noe u not the right way of quit sinning and yet still does it? yea exactly true. but i juz recently found out realli about me; it was on the trip home this morning at 12plus 1 am wif Robin and YuHong that i realli found out a bit more for myself. i am a piece of S*&$ if i could sae beta. serious. i mean i am those kinda guys that struggle wif lust, had a serious bad temper, has no confidence in himself thus result in a habitual lifestyle of lying, cheating from young. if i could sum it up in a phrase, it would be " i'm a wolf in sheep's clothing". yeah, no problem confessing here, cuz i dun gif a heck abt u saying those stuff abt me, true to the core & i m not afraid of any paparrazi as i will nv be famous at all. i leech on ppl, i cheat ppl's feelings and i am the downright scumbag.
so that settles it for today.

110806

2006-08-11T08:45:00.001+08:00

Apologies to the mani ppl who has come blog surfing and find mine wif dust, just needed some time to recollect myself after a major valley i dun noe how to get off. i still not out of it, but at least i no longer sulk in the valley. well time for pics and more pics.. sorry la.. quality not that gd cuz it is my Sony z520i . mani thanks for the peps who has constantly wanna come here to read abt a boring guy like me:)

Craziness, dun noe when take one. JM, Mr Miyagi, Emperor Alvin & me.

against the sky on NDP makeup:) i look sooo retarded.

Shoes at Bugis Village:) Supa Nice!

Taxi wif a Hand, Weird?

Drum Set Soon-to-Be in church:)

UDM in Negative mode, Rox Xia!
Class Joker, Diver Isyam!
Close-up on Shirt for Mr A%^
( kept for confidential reason, dun wanna get sued)
Adel not GayAnother Close-up! Both from New UrbanMale!

Logistic SteamBoat Fiesta
After Nic joined us, nothing was normal.. haha. Bimbo pic of JM & Nic, that is a fish in JM hand:)
Spoils of the night>from 3 person onli at 1hr from the time we started.
Prawn & Crab Murdered by 1 man, JM! King of the Shell ppl!
Nick levitating the cover, wif help fr0m Mr JM! haha.

Okok here are the awards for that night.

Mr Miyagi=Mala King, eat Mala until the soup no chilli oil, then add in bacon and eat till haf chilli oil again, until the soup is like 1/5 left!
Emperor Alvin= Empire for the night; "can we go already? Stop eating leh"
Nic= Fish maniac eat lots and lots of fish
JM=Space Jammer, no prob eat so much prawn and crab, crab walk for Space Jam no problem.
Collin=Straw mushroom man!! all the way eat straw mushroom!
finally me= bread and beef man!! it rox man, 10 bread and 4 plates of beef topped to the max!!

next is the SF dinner after a wonderful NDP show

Stressful Zhou Xuan.. eating plate cuz his food took 45min to arrive!!! bad service for him, every1 food came early except his!
Female peps at my table, except Jenifer, keep migrating table!
behind us the table, the metal cans are teh and milo ping!! all their food arrive b4 us!! ARGH!!
my supper!! macau Fried RicE!! cool aint it, everything nice except the veggie, too stiff sia!!
The tallest dessert in the stall, wif strawberry syrup, and sooo mai sweet treats at the bottom, delicious.. but cold!!Brr!!!
My fav dessert at there, watermelon & mango paradise
double present (his mohawk done by the hair stylist for NDP and oso the bday celebration)!!

RuYuan face after seeing the tall dessert! with no place else to put the food in him liao..lmao.!!
pose with the china Clay Army!! nice jacket added by NIC!!

Next the visit to our dear friend hostel in RP, Zhi Xuan!!

across is Dear Malaysia!!
another 1.. with more trees!!

kk time to stop posting pic b4 your overwhelm your bandwidth.. peace out!

In Class & done wif everything.

2006-08-07T12:33:00.000+08:00

Well.. as the title suggest, i m realli a bit bored. i just started listening to all the spoils i can find; CHC live Praise & worship, Josh Bedoukian alternative Groove, Great is our God by CCC. yea oso wanted to check on the signature stuff yeah!!.The CDs i brought 2 sch

so yea was listening & watching the DVD of CHC P&W, i tell u i almost wept.. i was controlling back alot. all the quality & spirituality is there, a muz haf for every Christian Album; that is wat separate us from all the other album out there. we make ppl so emotional; God didnt put emotion there for nuts u noe. so i was like so blown back by the CD that it felt like God came to the room and nothing else mattered, no hurrying, juz gazing at His splendor was all i could do and it was enuf to make me weep. Espicially the song Sanctuary, so gd recording for Sis Annabel and the whole event that it looks exactly like service and it was like living Emerge 06 once over again.

The CD that make me wept, so tangible presence i didnt felt for a long time

Last Nite of FOP06

2006-08-07T00:25:00.000+08:00

yea so this day was sooo great and bad at the same time.. lets start at SF training.. okok it was like soo fun hearing all the comments ya own members and friends haf of the ppl u see on stage. abt how this person look sooo charming while the other is beautiful. wow, this person play so well drums/guitar/bass etc.. yea so it was oso supa disappointing when i ask Sean to bring home the guitar cuz i cut the strings and CCC band not signing after service.. sighs.. muz be either they realli bz or that the security control this way is better.they can empty the whole hall. wateva the reason, was even more disappointed when Bro Boon say that we gg down aft SF to get Josh signature.. thats the drummer whom i mixed up with matt.. sorrie. so yea went down to Mac first.. then the most perculiar thing happened, i dun haf my guit so Sis Nikki cant sign it.. sobs. then it was all the ppl gg to SIS all went liao!! argh!! so we walked to SIS from Mac wif KFC. then let the band sign CDs, Bible and for Josh onli.. my bday sticks.!!! yippy. and yea i finally asked Sis Nikki to put a word of encouragement in the Bible i got her to sign. it was great but all great things came to an end. God realli challenged me in FOP this year to be even more concecrated to Him in all my ways that i can.

FOP nite 2!

2006-08-06T00:31:00.000+08:00

yea this muz be the happiest day of my life.. and i am NOT joking abt it.. serious. today was a hot day queuing outside but lets jump to the happy part.. when i finally have the money for CCC latest album!! yea and Nikki Fletcher spoke to me!! wow!! so cool.. i noe alot of ya will big deal so wat? all who buy during FOP also can get it signed and still talk to her.. she's a worship leader from CCC onli wat.. but she was the first person who inspired me to learn guitar.. cuz she was playing soooo well and yet still look supa cool in a acoustic guitar... yea.. so happiest day of my life.. tomo signing sticks, guitar and well album again.. yea..hahaha.. sorry la.. nv bring all the stuff today.. Josh to sign my sticks.. Nikki to sign my guitar, every1 else to sign my album!!! again!! haha.. simply luv it when they come to S'pore to perform.. all the best for the 2 following service.. oh yea and pls bear wif the video display at SIS.. i noe it is not the best we haf to offer, but it is not our screen and projector, it is SIS.. so sometimes programmes not totally compatible haf unplug moments.

050806

2006-08-05T02:01:00.000+08:00

okok.. sry nv blog 4 like 4 days.. too much things happened.. but all not major..like gg shopping.. rejected from gg shoppin, saving up for haircut etc..okok down to zhen zing things.
after a whole 14weeks to a veri happy RP life and culture, waking up at 720am and rushing out of the house at 745am and reaching sch at 828am and hitting and grumbling 2 myself how bad the morning crowd is and how the traffic light juz b4 school nv turn green.. etc.. i found out i realli haf a foul temper for 1 thing.. slacking!!! yea i cant take it when ppl take their own sweet time.. esp when i dun haf time to waste with them.. ARGH.. it was like so bad till i was supposed to the point i didnt go home wif my parents even though they came for FOP.. then i went to "eat" but ended up nv eat.. tired, hungry, thirsty, vexed and sleepy i took a bus home. alight at West Coast then walked in.. sighs.. supa sian lor.. i cant take it.. why cant ppl understand that one is wasting ya life away wif slacking unneccessarily.. i mean i am not against slacking.. but unneccessary slacking.. like waiting for 9 NDP official pass takes 40min to make.. ended up entering the place only 1 hour b4 the SF supposedly need to be ready to start prac back at PA.. and still haf not rehearse wif Sis Ling Ling yet.. sighs sia. even beta.. later took the bottles, only 1 place can fill up the 5l bottle.. then haf barricade.. then the officer veri eye power.. keep asking us put back the barrier after we move it even though we haf ppl on both side moving in and out.. supa KL sia.. then was supa pissed to the max today at MAC!!! fast-food, i dun think so. it was like this cashier dilly dally take chilli sauce, dilly dally put the drink with ice, fill it up.. dilly dally count money.. Hey! if ya wanna work night shift it beta be as alert as morning shift or else get off that shift can? get a life, excel in smt u r gd at.. not thinks that r like soooo not ya thing..like giving sour face and w8ting on customers.. literally w8 on them to push their buttons to move them. ok.. now on to tomo schedule
yea FOP today was great cuz my 2 most fav song leaders there.. i mean besides Sis Annabel; Nicky Fletcher and Don Moen.. i was supa shock when i saw Sis Nicky on stage after dun noe how long.. supa zai feminine acoustic lead.. rock on sia! she onli led 1 song though cuz Bro Jo Pringle nided 2 coordinate stuff wif the bass and drummer. so yea it was supa awesome to hear her lead.. haven heard her did that since.. change me!!
haircut tomo.. plus buying the style of mine.. the arm sock.. no one to copy k? i Jeff hardy in the flesh.. actually he is in the flesh..but u get the idea? with a newly cut hair, cap, bling bling, black shirt wif weird designs, brown cargo pants and one supa nice black arm sock.. supa cool.. like Jeff hardy on Budget..haha

010806

2006-08-01T23:15:00.000+08:00

hi this post firstly goes out to Alicia.. its her bday todae.. haha.. all the best and may ya 17th bday be the best thing yet for ya.
okok on to pressing matters. today lesson was alrite.. was still kinda tired.. so i haf decided.. after today nite.. i will turn it latest by 11pm.. i promise. i hope i can accomplish it.. haha.. so yea in lesson kinda bored.. then when i came back from lunch got a shock of my life.. someone say that i like someone!! i was like.. huh? simi taiji(hokkien for wat happened?) so yea was kinda huh-huh? then she say she saw both of us eating together at cafe.. then i told her we discussing abt BB stuff.. then we all laugh..lol.. the sort of things we can come up with in sch..lol.. okok i noe all of ya wanna hear about my shopping spree rite.. for those who dun.. it is time to leave.. muhahaha..lol
so sch ended at 345pm..after quiz that is.. then slag and slag.. but time still pass soooo slow.. then left sch for bugis.. so fastforward to bugis.. reached at 445pm.. wat great timing.. meet kenneth there..then we went off b4 zhao xuan came cuz he went home to change..so yep. we walk walk then we keep walkin.. no motivation to shop cuz both of them dun wanna spend sooo much money..lol.then i ended up buying a bling which is supa gorgeous.. i muz admit it took me 1&3/4hrs to find it.. so long sia.. then we were like.. buy a shirt which is obey with an eagle which had a snake in its beak.. so cool man.. realli enjoyed the company of ppl like them:) okok.. now to yesterday cuz i tooo tired to post la sorry...ok was hafing PM and then while in the train i told Germaine abt my tots 2 rise up in cg and yet still rise up in other areas.. sighs. wat a complicated life b4 me; a life which has mani paths-cg guitarist, SF contact head; possible POS-07 I/C, BB vice chairman muz step up to leadership. why has all it appeared for me? has it come for me to choose or is it a way to tell me that this is training to juggle even more things than this.. i can hardly take a breather of words without having the opportunity where i do not find myself thinking abt one of these things..wow.. wat a small person can do to a big world/organization. ok my bling pic below for reference. it is time to pick up and move on, or stay and slack like my body wants to..

Slain me Pls

2006-07-30T21:52:00.000+08:00

i noe i went too far, yet i still press on,
i noe you rubbed it off as being friends, but i took it too seriously
i hate myself this way, keeping it deep, letting no one noes.
but sometimes when it surface it stinks as bad as a skunk
why cant i forget, why cant i move on
why am i staying at the pit of spears where i dun belong
is it my sadist nature to torment myself,
or juz that forgetting you is too much for me?
can i trust you, i think so. but can u trust me?
when i betrayed your friendliness for affection?
it struck my heart too much that it is still nimbling on it,
consuming me bit by bit
like a festering flesh, i am a thorn in your flesh.

290706

2006-07-29T00:23:00.000+08:00

9 hours to big groove, 13 hrs to NDP last prac b4 of 2006, 19hrs to actual performance.. cant slp cant slp!! scared i wake up late for the first then sian liao.. realli supa enthu abt everything.. pray that nth will screw up; x-picially NDP.. dun noe how mani thousands watching the stage.. argh!!! realli panicky rite now.. pls calm down or else we cant get the show on the road!! oh gosh.. nth was that impactful till wat Bro Boon said on Wed.. you done your best for 1/6 of the total nrg lvl!! wah.. so powerful.. that was the first time i sweat for NDP prac from all the workout and not the sun! yeah so pls pray for us and make sure nth goes wrong.. UDM all in proper working condition, weather to be the best it can be, all SF members and NDP participants will be soooo sharp and that the cues and all the machinery will work just fine tomo afternoon till nite!! yeah.. so pls pray.. i m sooooo nervous dun noe wat to say sia.. i speechless.. or should i say i wordless..lol.. yea so cheers to a great NDP preview tomo at the 2nd last performance at the Kallang Stadium b4 it is blown to bits to make way for a new one!

UDM ROX!!

2006-07-27T23:06:00.000+08:00

okok.. so i juz came back from NDP prac for UDM.. it was awesome.. and yea wet.. as usual.. haha.. :) just simply luv it, it is realli true that your labour will not go unnoticed, was serving in log for a while liao.. then Alvin said, guys we must not only be good logistic team but also ppl who r playing out there impacting lives. Nicholas has done it, who will be next. that set me thinking.. so i was realli shocked when Sister Jenifer msg me & said that i playing udm!! i was like wow!! finally it came.. it was totally great and wat is beta.. i sharing double udm with Ling Ling.. haha it is gonna be cool.. i just noe it.. anyway, thats abt all, cuz i scared later i go rattling abt udm your all become sian wif the issue..so yea.. off to try to make the looks of the LoggeRhythm T-shirt.. bb.. haha:)

240706

2006-07-24T23:24:00.000+08:00

time for growth, time for maturity, time to take responsibility. this is my post to inform my realisation that i haf depended on a lot of support to get where i m to 2day.. it is time for forcing self-motivation.. learnt in lesson until i decided to self-motivate myself.. i will nv b successful and no success = no impact in society. time to break out, time to row my own boat upstream.. realli appreciate the time that your were there.. but i fear that i might become over-reliant & thus the reason for this post.. np wif the posting on my blog when ya visit, but hopefully i will try to cut down on the phone calls i gif 2 ppl...for reasons like counselling members and oso on gifing imp info like forecast and things like that.. it is not later, it is not the past, it is now.. if i m to fall it is now.. i rather i fall now and rebuild everything up again & become a strong leader nxt yr then to fall harder when i m a leader when i noe that i fall due to the lack of thought i gave to my foundation in life. life proves too meaningless when i realised that one of my spoke is shorter than the rest.. so keep getting stuck there. lets juz say smt that happened today help me 2 reflect on the incident i heard yesterday; some1 reported some1 else for doing something some1 else didnt do.. i dun wanna let this happen.. dun wanna fall flat on my face then realised it is totally my fault. Big thx 2 all my friends who has been supporting me as pillars of hope and encouragement. tribute below.

Cell Group/Sub-zone
Bro Weilun for letting me haf the freedom to choose, your discipleship way of knowing what you ought to do rather than what you think u should do but yet dun wanna do. this discipleship method is supa effective when it comes to mature members like me who all of a sudden wanna juz throw in the towel. thank you for your overwhelming understanding for NDP prac, sick for service, wrong decisions and words that is not appropiately used.

Chan Tong for always pushing me forward, encouraging like a brother, strict like a leader. your attitude for no-nonsense pushed me to haf excellence in character.. Thanks:)

mr Sean for your ever time to crap even in the times when time is of the essence. your choice to devote time to my life touched me in a way only brothers can remember. even wif overwhelming work and the super low chance to meet for lunch, ppl like u pushes me to think for myself and stop being a bu-ta-wong.. a toy that nv hits the floor. u help me to get up when it seem i m gg to face-flat the situation:)
Strikeforce
Alvin for your ever needed speech here and then to make sure that even if i dun wanna talk abt it, i still ended up being blessed by the words u spoke through discernment.. thank you alot for wat u did for me on my bday and thanks to all LoggeRhythmN for it, realli think that u guys r commited ppl wif feelings to pour out for ppl like me:)

Bro Darryl for always being understanding, late forecast, no forecast, delay contact list till now.. etc. i might look like the worst disciple u ever wanna raise up, a Peter b4 the encounter, a Saul for his arrogance to stay the same way of my-way-or-the-highway attitude. thx for listening to all my grievances.

Bro Boon for your ability to trust such a noobie in music and sound crew stuff to take on an important lesson in Easter, for training in the equipments or discipleship for myself, i think that it is one of my most memorable thing this yr for me. Thank u for hafing soooo much confidence to put me in for NDP and still yet gif me a chance to perform on stage regardless of the prac i missed and the inadequate skills.

TRP06
Jocelin for always being there, your silence may creep a few but for me, it gives me a chance to write stuff i didnt noe hid inside of me. a friend so close it is like Dear Sister at home except that i haf no blood sister but a great sister like u pushes me on.. thank you alot for everything:)

Liz for always being so willing to listen to my grievances no matter wat it might be; lesson, BGR, not enuf money for this and that and crapping even. u brighten up my day for me when the sun seems to be scorching instead of revelational.. u show the path and lead me to the entrance of it to move on for myself. thank u soo veri the much.

Encouragement is not only positive strings of word that is said for bad times, but is a feeling that acceptance is nearby and though it may turn sour, the sweetness of friends like this brings the determination to be changed from flare up and blame every1 except myself and oso the feeling of dependence on close friends.

You ppl haf been kind, now is my turn to force grow myself in self-motivation

240706

2006-07-24T00:21:00.000+08:00

lesson 4 this week; when ya different group of ppl, u nid 2 potray a diff part of ya even though it is the same u.. cuz some may not be veri acceptive of ya supa friendly self or the strict behaviour.. go figure. it was cool finally eating wif my beloved cg:W299!! it was a chance i haf cuz realli haf nth on. then when we were fellowshipping we were supa friendly, all the "beautiful" language spring forth.. even though it is not the realli colorful ones.. the typical singaporean words lor..S***.. etc.. yea.. and then it hit me; the reason why my CG hasn't been improving or in CGL language multiplying is cuz of our ties wif 1 another. if we can realli be real families wif care for words when we speak, care 4 ppl when some1 is not realli doing well, encourages each other and realli do our best in our areas of servitude, we will grow in quality. since God promises quantity comes after quality is assured, we can be garanteed success in reaching out! Oh so, now muz realli step up 2 the plane of being a mature Christian... no cant make it nonsense, no colorful wat the blink?! etc language, no weird acting towards ppl, and we will grow! yea so pls rebuke me seriously if i reall cross the line, be strict wif me cuz i will try to restrain myself and if i loosen too much pls realli do smt to me.. i dun wanna remain ave, i dun wanna leave my cg when it multiply and not disband and felt that i did nth in the contribution of multiplication but lots in disbanding it... cuz Pst said that being slack is ez, jus... slag lor.. current will bring ya down.. but the gg up part is challenging so pick up ya equipments and move up.. no turning back cuz it is too late.. 9 mths as a cg and no growth is unacceptable.. pls help me Lord, i try my best.. u help me take care the rest.

230706

2006-07-23T00:13:00.000+08:00

count down to NDP.. count down 2 performance of my life yet! 16 days to it.. ready for it.. yeah... i think lol.. actually i think i might fall short from greatness and i dun wanna be excellent.. cuz all the performers at NDP are excellent! greatness is the key 2 make us stand us! so yea today went to extreme makeover.. not myself but old folks house at redhill close.. seriously 1st time to a 1-room flat.. dun believe it is possible 2 stay in till i saw it, very cosy though.. i think if haf cgm muz shift everything out besides the kitchen for a group of 12 ppl sitting in a circle.. realli small u noe. but realli glad that my act helps that elderly malay citizen. his smile of approval and awe when he saw the house was tidy & yet still as cosy as can be is definitely unforgettable. yea so went home, bathe then rush out of house and was still late for SF NDP.. sighs.. so yea it was great, first time the food tasted & look realli nice.. realli luv the way today SFI prepared it.. supa nice and yet home style; whipped potato, long beans, meat and some fried finger food +1 bread.. nice no-kidding!! i luv it, was reall hoping it will be gd and nutritious cuz i hafing a cough and thus no KFC and pizza hut for me so yep.. gd food.. keep up the gd job sia ppl:)yea back late cuz we were realli hungry for 2 things, maggi goreng and a huge improvement in our contact group! realli praying every1 be more commited to SF and oso to haf great teachable attitudes for moulding and creation of new leaders..thus reflected alot while we praying.. i seem to haf fallen short alot of a mature member, sighs.

190706

2006-07-19T22:57:00.000+08:00

yo back after awhile.. muz definitely blog abt this man..today topic on false advertising.. i tell you totally cheem till cant cheem liao lor. machiam study how advertisement work properly. study pattern la.. then turn the ad upside-down.. wah..realli hiong ar.. haiz.. okok off that topic. now on to happier stuff.. finally my luv for maths is shown in something ok.. my UT2 or ppl who dun noe what is UT it is your understanding test or machiam common test in sch.. only 30min and lotsa stress and lotsa slag week in between :).. yeah so tomo still haf another maths related.. its enterprise UT on FV,PV and PMT!! ar.. future value la wat period wat annunity wah brain kaboom liao lor.. no la.. muz chill thats why blog now.. cooling down.. even though i losing slp but better than enter sooooo panicky cant answer anything..that even more sian tiao... so yep.. the cool thing is i think i will do well.. its maths.. but not gd cuz it is abt excel computing.. wah.. tio liao.anyway, praying i can do realli well for it tomo.. then after that at least Mr Ong dun nid 2 think he wasted his time in class teaching on all that after sch.. Thank him more than a kid thank Santa.. cuz he help us when we didnt ask.. Santa gif ya cuz u ask and ya were gd.. anyway, got Tanya Chua's So Beautiful today.. supa cool.. swai qi sia.. nice till muz get album.. so anyway, peace out.. but b4 that.. S'pore idol rox today man.. Rahimah sang Pink like Pink sia.. supa punkish.. i like man.. u rox gal!! haha.. anyway, something realli bad happened ard my neighbourhood b4 i came home.. my maid saw someone literally commit suicide.. argH!!!she was like the kind of person who every1 tot is living a happy life wif the husband.. but when the husband went out for juz a while to gai-gai.. she lept to her death.. and she waved good-by 2 my block ppl! eeewww... realli she say bye and waved b4 she died... how gross is that.

170706

2006-07-17T21:46:00.000+08:00

finally.. SF is coming home today.. yippy.. was kinda worried abt their safety & all when i heard the news on the typhoon heading towards taiwan.. but no fret.. it is over & all they haf to bring back is good memories and alot and i mean alot of exp.. well today didnt go to sch still.. $*&#.. cant stand it man.. still freaking sick.. but towards the nite it became beta.. well it beta stay that way cuz i dun wanna end up gg 2 sch like that liao.. wanna go sch.. anyway.. tomo haf test!! argh!! yea and i spend the whole day doing nth.. and oso watching drumline.. wah lao.. supa dao lor the drummer.. a muz watch 4 all stuck-up or try to be or dun wanna be stuck up ppl.. realli a family thing even if ya dun like percussion.. it rox man.! yea so today was kinda sick for me.. went 2 da doc again.. same doc twice in 4 days.. what r the odds.. i noe.. yea so "replenished" medicine and oso see what he can do.. then tell me muz cool down myself.. and i haf been sweatin it out.. yea for a whole day.. i realli haven stop sweating yet.. shucks.. i stop myself sweating for 3months and this is wat my sweat glands gonna do to me.. shucks man.. anyway.. i realli gtg slp.. or else like tat again.. so this is nigga gg out.. C'mon DJ, spin the disk!? Peace OUT! :)

realli sick

2006-07-14T21:22:00.000+08:00

wah.. cough cough.. my nose seems as if i need to call the plumber.. my throat feels as if it was run over by a trailer.. my body seems like it is boiling in water.. i AM having a fever.. sigh sia.. juz when NDP is sooooo near than like that.. but then again.. all of SF has been hit some way.. when i heard of the Typhoon in Taiwan.. i was realli praying nothing will go wrong to our team in Taiwan.. pls pray for them.. i mean all those in taiwan who is on mission trip for Emerge Taiwan..anyway.. haf a gd news.. my long awaited flesh imp VIP card is ready for collection.. the guy called me yesterday abt it and since i didnt go to sch cuz of my fever.. i think tomo gonna take it..hope that all will keep each other in prayer... this is a time of uneasiness for ppl in the church.. all of hell has been called to stop us.. but no matter wat we must break ground and move towards the great Commission. Amen?!

13/07/06 missin ya

2006-07-13T11:01:00.000+08:00

its been long.. veri long.. i tot i could forget, i tot time will heal but it dealt me a fierce fist this morning.
places we have been; bugis, bukit panjang, friendster just to name a few. i see the memories we shared, the places we go to shop as individual we brought each other. brought u to bugis to buy a present.. sighs. such fond memories. not a ting of unhappiness to not be wif u.
It is over, totally over. i tot it will nv come. i prayed b4 that if u hated me it will force me to gif up on u.. praying i haf and came to pass it did. the undecisiveness on my part to ask if we are just friends or more than that. i took your friendliness for love, took your time spend as something i can look forward to be closer to you. but realising it will not last, i make it the most of everything.. giving to u my time and my choices revolved ard u.. it was fun, it was great when it lasted. like all things in this world, it must come to an end. this came to an end early, at least i can move on i hope. the sighs, the heartache, the memories.. i can juz be a has-been friend in ya mind..

7 things abt mi

2006-07-05T02:05:00.000+08:00

7...
random things abt me
1) i like ppl who let me noe their lives cuz i am a great adviser for matters!
2) i am starting to like my hair liao
3) Ed hardy rox!
4) i cant go taiwan emerge so sad.
5) i realli go for looks first than character, but bossy and act teh attitude turns me off.
6) good buds wif sean ko junren, dun noe him, get to noe him lor!
7) Esmond-holy and glorious angel, i not there yet to obtain such a name!

scares me
1) ppl not doing well, i will make sure they will get well in any situation
2) i hate insects.. i mean oversize ones of the norm! like machiam big grasshopper in my room rite now & i still cant find it
3)not luv by any1.. i noe i nid to stay single all my life unless God picked some1 so tolerant of my crappy personality and enormous destiny to literally die for a cause!
4)to see ppl pass away from sickness or old age, dun like the fact they close their eyes and nv open them most of the time..i mean besides a resurrection!
5)to see ppl separate due to me, im a person of dignity, wanna win the heart of a gal, lets compete fairly and whoever loses walk away wif the fact that he faced the best and the best is wif the gal whom he noe she deserves the best!
6) to finally not be able to walkfast again.. i hate the fact ppl delay time to waste their life!
7) to see maggots crawling in and out of skin, jocelin u should noe what i mean.

random songs
1) you have a bad day by daniel powter
2) Jesus freak by DC talk
3) hips dun lie by shakira
4) pink geek by dun noe who
5)warcraft 3 boggie by w3
6) candy shop
7) destiny by CHC!

longerest blog word count!

2006-07-05T01:34:00.000+08:00

ok ok finally i m back and i haf lotsa stuff to talk abt.
firstly, my role as a leader is destined by God, i cant hide anymore. it is my duty for now to serve under the leaders put over me in sch, loggerhythm, cell group. no more complacency.
secondly, relationship ties with sisters realli nid to make it clear. just cuz i appear friendly doesnt mean i am showing an interest in you! serious.. i am just being friendly! i make friends fast, my fault lor!
thirdly, NDP tickets for 8 july preview.. anyone wanna come let me know.. 4 tickets onli
forthly, i realli luv taking pics now.. and also going to gym! cuz not onli haf friends who go wif me to train, but also haf ppl from dragon boat gals to talk to.. so bored just talking to guys onli..sometimes it is true, sometimes not true.
fifthly, i was at expo today to help set up the stage, luv it man, back in hall 8!
lastly i find that today's supper at geylang lorong 15 the nasi lemak supa nice lor.. the chicken wings wif honey fried wif it.. totally satisfying!

18/06/06

2006-06-18T23:24:00.000+08:00

You Communicate With Your Body

This isn't as bad as it sounds, it just means that you're a "touchy-feely" person.

You need a lot of affection in your life. And for you, this means both giving and receiving little touches.

Warm hearted, you bond with people easily. In fact, you often feel a little sad when you're not in the company of others.

A little moody, you tend to be controlled by your emotions. But a bit hug always comforts you!

How Do You Communicate?
Following that.. there are other stuff to talk abt.. there are things like well stuff i realli been complacent abt getting.. ed hardy shirt, a skate shoe, stage-in ear earpieces, a new mp3, etc.. sighs.. time to start saving up.. now is the time to diet.. haha.. yeah u heard me.. diet.. im going on a spent as little each day diet. a diet in obsession to look good now i haf some mass to work wif.. thank God for food like chocolate and TV and home-cooked food and no time limit or set time to do anything.. slacking and gaining weight routine.. yes.. tue and fri r my gym trainin days.. yez u heard the man.. the nigga.. im seriously gg 2 the gym. yeah anyway here to blog abt SF.. yea it was like total ownage today lor.. during SF sis Jenifer say ok Esmond & a few more ppl changing from performing at the sicssor's lift the bottom there to the stage.. i was huh? wat a blessing for me!!Thank God for bringing me through this week.. understood the sermon physically in this human realm.. no longer some principle up there.. now applicable.

1 day after bday

2006-06-16T14:45:00.000+08:00

this yr i muz say i didnt noe God wanted to use me in ways i never thought possible. it was an unexpected thing but God always provide the answers for problems we dun noe. Say it simply, i haf been thinking through for 6 days liao how to? take which position; StrikeForce or RP Primers? well good news to all who has know abt this & been praying abt it.. i decided to pick StrikeForce over Primers not due to any reason but the reason God gave me while i was reading the book Jonathan passed to me yesterday at my bday celebration at mind cafe.. we need to go back there man.. so good service.. even more details in the service than settlers cafe.. hahaz ok back to the book. i told u jonathan i will share my revelation wif u one. ok God shed light while i reading.. Pst John was saying in his book on the decision he was to make if he should be spiritual and take a path to publicize his preaching on finding God in the spiritually dry period.. so he was given a opportunity to have his book published by a super-famous-able-to-make-normal-book-hit-top-sales-kinda company. so he gave in despite God's persistent reminder not to. so he talked abt in his book how everything went downhill.. and then God spoke in the ever small voice He haf, make a decision now! not later but now.. so i said, Well God, i think i should be in StrikeForce and i asked God did i make the right decision and i felt led to read on, in which it was written in the book where the first decision that Pst John was to not take up the offer; and God said, is your final decision same like the first u make when i spoke so ever clearly? i was wow.. God u can speak to a person i a train? cool man.! so yea my decision is made, and the backdoor of changing a ministry is totally shut, no turning back folks not that it was not planned to glorify God, but that it is not God's time for me to go through this.

other revelational stuff from this book alone are that the verse if u love me, keep my commandments.. it has developed a totally different meaning. if u read your bible and it is like mine, there is a refrence to the refrence in the page, it omits the word you will in front of the word keep.. put it in and u get, if u luv me, you will keep my commandments. wat difference? look at the top, if u love God u r obliged to keep his commandments. but if u read the second one, you will keep my commandments mean that u keep his commandments cuz it is not only pleasing to Him, but that u enjoy doing it.. obedience in enjoyment is definitely more fun than being restricted.. ask a kid, if they r not allowed to play soccer outside when their parent restrict them to, and the commandment to drink a cup of their most favourite milk before they sleep which is easier to do..

~1 man, 2 choices,1 decision, 7 days to find an answer, 1 trip in a train wif God speaking changed everything~

Five lessons to make you think about the way we treat ppl

2006-06-13T16:19:00.000+08:00

1 - First Important Lesson - Cleaning Lady.

During my second month of college, our professor gave us a pop quiz. I was a conscientious student and had breezed through the questions until I read
the last one:
"What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?"
Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the cleaning woman several times. She was tall, dark-haired and in her 50s, but how would I know her name?
I handed in my paper, leaving the last question blank. Just before class ended, one student asked if the last question would count toward our quiz grade.
"Absolutely," said the professor. "In your careers,you will meet many people. All are significant. They deserve your attention and care, even if all you do is smile and say "hello."
I've never forgotten that lesson. I also learned her name was Dorothy.

2. - Second Important Lesson - Pickup in the Rain
One night, at11:30 p.m., an older African American woman was standing on the side of an Alabama highway trying to endure a lashing rainstorm. Her car had broken down and she desperately needed a ride. Soaking wet, she decided to flag down the next car.
A young white man stopped to help her, generally unheard of in those conflict-filled 1960s. The man took her to safety, helped her get assistance, and put her into a taxicab.
She seemed to be in a big hurry, but wrote down his address and thanked him. Seven days went by and a knock came on the man's door. To his surprise, a giant console color TV was delivered to his home. A special note was attached..
It read:
"Thank you so much for assisting me on the highway the other night. The rain drenched not only my clothes, but also my spirits. Then you came along. Because of you, I was able to make it to my dying husband's bedside just before he passed away... God
bless you for helping me and unselfishly serving others."
Sincerely,
Mrs. Nat King Cole.

3 - Third Important Lesson - Always remember those who serve.
In the days when an ice cream sundae cost much less, a 10-year-old boy entered a hotel coffee shop and sat at a table. A waitress put a glass of water in front of him.
"How much is an ice cream sundae?" he asked.
"Fifty cents," replied the waitress.
The little boy pulled is hand out of his pocket and studied the coins in it.
"Well, how much is a plain dish of ice cream?" he inquired.
By now more people were waiting for a table and the waitress was growing impatient.
"Thirty-five cents," she brusquely replied.
The little boy again counted his coins.
"I'll have the plain ice cream," he said.
The waitress brought the ice cream, put the bill on the table and walked away. The boy finished the ice cream, paid the cashier and left. When the waitress came back, she began to cry as she wiped down the table. There, placed neatly beside the empty dish, were two nickels and five pennies..
You see, he couldn't have the sundae, because he had to have enough left to leave her a tip.

4 - Fourth Important Lesson. - The obstacle in Our Path.
In ancient times, a King had a boulder placed on a roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if anyone would remove the huge rock. Some of the king's wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by and simply walked around it. Many loudly blamed the
King for not keeping the roads clear, but none did anything about getting the stone out of the way.
Then a peasant came along carrying a load of vegetables. Upon approaching the boulder, the peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the stone to the side of the road. After much pushing and straining, he finally succeeded. After the
peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed a purse lying in the road where the boulder had been. The purse contained many gold coins and a note from the King indicating that the gold was for the person who removed the boulder from the roadway. The peasant learned what many of us never understand!
~Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improve our condition.~

5 - Fifth Important Lesson - Giving When it Counts...
Many years ago, when I worked as a volunteer at a hospital, I got to know a little girl named Liz who was suffering from a rare & serious disease. Her only chance of recovery appeared to be a blood transfusion from her 5-year old brother, who had
miraculously survived the same disease and had developed the antibodies needed to combat the illness. The doctor explained the situation to her little brother, and asked the little boy if he would be willing to give his blood to his sister.
I saw him hesitate for only a moment before taking a deep breath and saying, "Yes I'll do it if it will save her." As the transfusion progressed, he lay in bed next to his sister and smiled, as we all did, seeing the color returning to her cheek. Then his face grew pale and his smile faded.He looked up at the doctor and asked with a
trembling voice, "Will I start to die right away".
Being young, the little boy had misunderstood the doctor; he thought he was going to have to give his sister all of his blood in order to save her.

~Work like you don't need the money, love like you've never been hurt, and dance like you do when nobody's watching.~NOW more than ever - Peace...Pass It On.....~

2006-06-11T00:43:00.000+08:00

Varsity 06

100606

2006-06-10T23:49:00.000+08:00

today was like wow.. supa cool sia. today firstly haf cg.. rush here rush there.. went to clementi, then they gave me wrong strings then need to go to jurong west to change.. then after that rush back to get it in b4 cg.. then cg was like amazing man! it was totally mind blowing.. i tell u it was my cg i was looking forward for.. it was how to make good friends.. friends that will take u higher.. friends that u will be wanting to help and be encouraged by them too. so yeah after cg rush again to go for training at national stadium.. then realised that national stadium is filthy.. if we take a pic of it and post it as s'pore stadium.. s'pore view of clean city gone! harz. so after a veri sianz start we didnt perform.. muz tell myself that if beginning sian i cant be sian.. cuz i playing for God!! that is too much on the line to lose. yea then walked to kallang to watch match.. swee swee uncle share table wif us.. so yea watched the whole thing and was sianz.. why like that paraguay lost by mistake... then i realised smt.. sometimes our life's decision is like the match.. a small wrong mistake in a wrinkle in time might cause a totally different result. like when moses doubt God he was onli able to oversee the land, aaron doubt God and was onli able to haf his son enter it.. if paul made a wrong turn then the greatest nation on earth; america will not be the influential ones of christianity. 1 purpose, a crossroad, 1 answer to find from GoD!

090606

2006-06-09T23:05:00.000+08:00

yeah.. leadership; a thing that worries me more than most stuff teenagers worrie about.. lets see; teens worrie about BGR, studies, how they look, if they can buy that sweater they want for a loooooooooooooong time.. etc.. i am worried about making the wrong decision for myself in ministry.. sighs. Strikeforce or RP Primers? okok before i go on i muz caution all readers to do this for me pls.. dun tell me which side to go.. it will onli cause more chaos... i think if can ya pls pray for me.. best gift for me & u.. i get my prayer answered, u get closer to God, wat can beat that?! sighs... so i think over, ask jocelin abt her comment.. waiting for sean to respond, talking to Darryl and Bro Boon abt it tomo, haf talked to bro Eric liao so most importantly & shucks why did i forget.. muz ask Bro Wei Lun tomo after or before CG.. sighs>_<>
So you want the day off :- Lets take a look at what you are asking for :-
There are 365 days in the year available for work.
There are 52 weeks in the year, in which you already have two days off per week, leaving 261 days available for work.
Since you spend 16 hours each day away from work, you have used up 170 days, leaving only 91 days available.
You spend 50 minutes each day in coffee breaks which accounts for 25 days per year, leaving only 68 days available.
With 1 hour lunch period each day, you have used up another 46 days, leaving only 2 days available for work.
You normally spend two days per year on sick leave.
This leaves only 20 days available for work.
We are off for 5 holidays per year, so your available working time is down to 15 days.
We generously give you 14 days vacation per year, which leaves only 1 day available for work, and I'll be damned if I'm going to let you take that day off.Cheered up Alot more after this few.. try this if ya feeling stress.... eases abit.. the rest ask God.. realli seriously.. not religious statement.
Best pic i see it as!

06/06/06

2006-06-06T20:57:00.000+08:00

bad no for a year.. go figure. anyway, heard that omen open in theatres today.. anyway, hu cares about this kinda movies that might spark of something 'demonic' in the air.. pls its a movie and it is not like the kind of shows u see on ya tele which says that you will get hypnotised and end up as human zombies.. sighs.. yea.. today's blog on how great xmen last stand was yesterday.. it was like wow! dear beloved Brother Boon booked 3 full roles in the centre from the just comfortable area to the realli comfortable ones.. best seats in the house by Strikeforce.. haha.. saw the ad for Superman supa funnie.. it was like the beginning some ppl say that superman look machiam like gay.. but who cares he got good face.. he deserve it man! then the end this robber like shot a bullet at his eye and it seemed that it went in.... till the middle of the bullet bend and the whole head of the round was like squashed flat.. and drop on contact wif his eyes.. wow.. wat a great ad before a great movie.. haha. so on to Xmen the last stand.. no matter what ppl say.. i say rogue looks super beautiful.. i mean hu else fits the role best that she realli realli looks confused in the whole love but i cant touch u kinda stuff.. i mean in xmen 1 she almost killed logan.. hes scar all reappeared sia. but wif her lovely 1 lock of streak white hair.. she looks great man i tell u.. even better than mystique gone normal.. sighs.. i mean big deal u model model lor.. sighs.. shows so much flesh so cute on screen when she saves magneto and he rejects her juz like that. Ana Paquin(rogue), daniel cudmore(colossus) looks reall good on set. besides kitty of course.. ok no more revealers beside the fact that stay behind after the credits if u realli wanna see a 10-15 second thing and also that jean look realli bad when she turned into the phoneix.. great acting Famike Janssen.. u look realli wicked juz having all the veins appear on ya face.. wicked sick! u own gal!..
okok for today.. i realised i haf gained some decent weight to finally hit the gym! yea.. my stomach feels its gonna explode liao if i still stock more fats in! yea.. so muz start exercising b4 i see overstretched marks on my body..lol. yea! tats all for today.. wow.. i realli realli wish i can get back my cam soon.. missing power shot a430 by canon™

05/06/06

2006-06-05T09:54:00.000+08:00

this day is totally memorable, last nite Emerge Conference was filled will lotsa stuff, action packed, gifts, recognition...etc.. BUT most importantly of all i would haf to say is that Emerge this year is filled with lotsa crying.. yea u saw this rite.. crying.. not course we didnt win, dun worrie we are people that has already been strongly convicted that no matter winning or not winning, we will still find that journey all of us took to be totally memorable and breathless one.. it was so due to the soon announced departure of RP from TP, no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it cant be.. still finding it hard to let it go, but while i am doing that, i shall enjoy wat time i haf wif them till next year!!! haha! so yea though next year cluster IC, i dun realli find it veri easy to accept this responsibility, i mean u can say i am like a close observer which is also an active participant, i keep a lookout for things and areas we might haf overlook, but to oversee the whole thing.. 1 word~ WOW!~ i was totally shock out! a man can onli take sooooo much suprises in 1 day! but as we look back on that memorable day, where we gave it all we haf, but more than that, what we haf achieved from a group in 2 different campuses, north and east, to come together uniting in 1 spirit is totally unthinkable, i mean u ask any adult; not CHC member also can.. who will be willing to cab every single day from woodlands to tampines.. it was more than juz money; its tears cried over why we cant do as good as we think we should; prespiration from all our long an gruelling hours of trainin, if u think extreme sports was difficult wait till u see this! then there is the blood as little as we wanna see them appear on wounds of flyers, bases, lifters, dancers.. everyone! the bruises from all the flying and inappropiate catching or the ineffective bouncing.. haha.. the long hours through the nite to make sure everything turns out smooth sailing as much as we can for practise to make it fruitful, the numbers of prayers we always conduct for POS for safety and smooth journey back home; all this i haf lost count of! quoted from the message Pastor Kong preached about on emerge yesterday morning.. Samson took 300 foxes! we are like 60 foxes taken by God from let see... hmm.. woodlands and tampines! placed together, with the flame of revival and prayer and teamwork lit within us !wow! it was thoroughly fun wif noises in the background of affirmation! no doubt we haf our sorrows, no doubt we haf our disagreements.. but one thing stands long all the way---------- our faith! from the video;look where it has got us, we haf gotten stronger, gotten purer, haf become a person of God's presence, you are now more in-tuned with the word of God; com'on give Him praise for the glory of GoD! wow.. i realli wanna take this time to realli thank all the people that has made me come this far, i noe that the commitment level will be high, cuz of POS last year, but i didnt expect it to be this HIGH! *gasp* Let me take u through wat was it like from the start till the end... * Let me take u to a place u nv been before*

first day of POS.. main audi; b4, 1245pm, was late was panicky, was excited on who i was gonna meet.. then it happen... found out was the first RP student to join this year.. gasp! oh i was soooooo thrilled!
first pic in main audi as a group
wow!
next phrase.. more and more fellowship.. more and more outing.. more and more ban li? haha.. but b4 that.. we haf out first taste of formation up on bases!! not easy i tell u!look at the number of ppl below.. shiong ar!! every1 look soooooo intense.. soooo concentrated.. i mean the ppl on the floor.. the flyers on the bases... hmm... seems to enjoy themselves.. haha.
outing pics.waiting waiting.. cant seem to get enuf of it.. while we do that.. lets fellowship!its not me.. its henry!! haha... POS-KBOX session.. this is great.. even glenn is dancing along.. u go bro! muz haf been some nice songs dun ya think?cafe pic... see a similarity in all 3 pic? i not in.. sighs.. haf sch.. sianz...picture that has a lot of story to tell.. muz say one.. ok so needed a glass bottle so kenneth offered to bring his.. wif stars! so me and kenneth pakat..( pakat-work together underhand). we played along and let me be the mean guy who took away the gal of his dream present for him.. haha..!! finally without final ado.. ban li!the end? not yet.. muz end of wif a pic of us on the day of performance itself!!!
the end finally.. nope.. yea end to a performance.. but not to a friendship and a bond we build over 2 months!

2/06/06

2006-06-02T21:50:00.000+08:00

sighs.. one of the worst day of this whole year, and i mean it! of all days, i m sick the day of Emerge! i was like i cant be sick.. i haf a flyer to fly, haf a show to put on, haf a God to glorify for the revival thats gonna happen! it was bad, so bad that minutes before going up for POS'06, my stomach ballooned to somewhat like a bomb juz exploded inside, bearing it, went up to stage, gave my best and didnt regret a single moment of it. while on stage camera went in front of me and for once i realised that i realli mattered, for TRP, for God, wat else can be better? as i came down, knowing i haf pushed myself beyond all my mind could say i do, felt proud for putting on a great show, and bad for being foolish? i dun noe.. as i left the hall, went to the back room, it felt realli bad; it was sooooo bad that i didnt even wanna sit wif the rest of the ppl, dun wanna let them noe.. sighs.. while waiting to get into the CCTV rooms for sermon, i felt realli queasy, no not the kind where u juz left a boat, but more of an aeroplane going into mayday mode! argh! then it happened, vomitted like no one knows how, i cant even remember the last time i vomited.. then when i thought is gonna be beta alrdy, my stomach felt it was being squeezed by a workbench vice, so tight till i noe that i noe that i haf nothing to vomit liao. then the difference in the temperature of my body wif the hall was sooo different, that i felt like a man left in the north pole. approximately 10-15 min of involuntary shaking then it stopped. then i juz left without my top, i was like i need to go home.. then went home and woke up like 5-6 times trying to use whats left my energy to pull myself up to bathe and also to unpack everything, to no avail. then it was morning and i knew that morning emerge service i cant go liao... sigh

i can stand physical pain, i can bear with emotional hurts, but why sickness hit me so hard that it took a while to stand up again?

1/06/06

2006-06-01T00:26:00.000+08:00

finally, the month of june is upon us! the much anticipated Emerge Conference is on our hands! haha.. was going through the whole thing yesterday, then there was an unguarded presence and fear and frustration got into the waiting time of the preview. it was so strong that when u turn around to talk to someone, the attitude of intense panicky was so real.. it was really so stong that we decided to pray over it, over and over again! but b4 that, went to get the uniform, i was like wow so nice sia the uniform! was totally amazed at how fitting it is on me.. so fitting that does not restrict anything and yet it is still able to reflect a sense of an enthusiastic cheerleading group! yea so we did the run-through twice.. prayer became so common within us everything we oso pray, it has turned into a lifestyle! wow! yea so after that we did prac ourselves but an unexpected accident happen.. lol.. when is an accident EVER expected..lol.. anyway, joc hurt her noggin..sighs.. so i was like how can this happen and at the same time, dun crowd pls.. gif her some air, by looking at her it won't help to do anything! so was still carrying on and later she was brought to Changi General Hospital.. sighs looks more like a war zone medic recovery center than a hospital.. so yea.. she say everything was fine... taking her word for it..
On the last note i wanna add something i feel is really important; prayer.. that's what is different between the cheerleading groups in Church from the groups outside! so yea.. encouraging everyone 2 realli pray for everything, regardless if it is a problem or juz a prayer to thank God everything went on smoothly!

Okok.. i am off to do the hair bands and the hand bands from the sequins..sighs.. nite to all!

31/05/06

2006-05-31T01:23:00.002+08:00

ok this first part is a game.. hopefully it will carri on to the ppl i sincerely asked to...pls! *take out dusty halo*Ok.. here goes!
1) i simply wanna get 2 big vodoo dolls for my bag! yippy..or maybe even the Mr Bean the teddy.. dun noe..haha
2) okok.. i will be seriously involved in lotsa stuff this yr.. it will pass me like a flash... this yr schedule.. Chingay(done), Easter(done), POS( currently comin to a close, sadly.. lets still stay in contact k?), NDP (missing SF liao.. miss time of Prata and Teh Tarik.. everytime i drink i think of ya!), Boy's Brigade aka Primers Programme overseas trip to somewhere like Thailand, and finally to end it all.. hopefully i do music track for Christmas pls! i wan, i wan.. pls!
3)i luv to visit ppl's blog.. like de.. i tag everytime i can on each person blog.. so yea!
4) i got over her liao.. released her from my memory.. dun ask hu.. those who noe..pls dun tell a single soul!..
5) i want to change course! i wan to take STA courses.. still deciding sighs.. Lord, let all my UT be A's pls! thank you and i believe it will come to pass!
6)Seriously luv my Class.. they are like.. my 3rd home.. 1st is church(i noe i noe your say why sia.. not family meh?.. dun noe juz feel that way!), 2nd family, third W16M!! will miss ya when we change in the semestral switch over!
7)playing a veri old and ancient game.. Marvel vs Street Fighter! playing in Easy mode.. sighs.. so weak..
8)my camera is still wif someone.. that's why all still word..no la! i oso saving up for the battery oso.. need to get GP rechargeable batt wif charger.. it cost ard 50+ almost 60.. think can get it immediately once the first week after school start after Emerge!
9) i joined like 4 IG.. but onli commited totally to Primers.. dun noe which other one to pick; magic ig the Fac not bad, the IC for Hip-hop veri friendly.. sighs.. wat a chore!
10) and lastly.... is for TRP!@!@!@!@! wow.. finally ur muz be supa depressed why nv see ya self.. well juz wanna say a big I LUV YA PPL to all of the participants of POS.. no matter the fact if you did not be the 60 person left.. it is still a good effort put in by all of ya and i noe due to some realli valid reasons your cant.. i understand.. or shld i say WE understand! for those who perserved, juz wanna say lets do a great job for TRP and rock the whole of Expo Hall 8 b4 we move to Hall 1.. let it be a lasting impression to all ppl who are comin for emerge and using emrge to see the place one last time!

now for the Sabo time.. haha.. its gonna be..* drumroll*
1) jocelin
2) Jfoll
3)Calynne
4) Shing
5) Dennis
haha.. hope ya will continue.. no harm done rite?

31/05/06

2006-05-31T01:23:00.001+08:00

31/05/06

2006-05-31T01:23:00.000+08:00

29/05/06

2006-05-29T23:46:00.000+08:00

yoz.. today lesson in school was about Visual Basic(u sure anot? basic.. like Visual Complex!) it was a totally mind- wrenching stuff.. sighs.. and the fac wasn't any good either.. it was like.. he came in then acting like we machiam his long lost friends he started swanning ppl for being late.. even for 5 minute.. when he say like he will overlook the 15 min late stuff.. still talk sooo much about being late lor.. it was like his word has returned to his mouth... sighs sian ar! he was like you better check somemore when i was giving my opinion.. i mean wat kind of fac is this sia.. he thought he good friend ar.. cut ppl then oso never say sry.. big deal wif big masters in maths.. go teach uni or JC ... why come here? then the last straw was this.. he gave an RJ( reflection Journal) on how we view his attitude in class.. i mean c'mon.. all of the class noe that he is a person that need to be talked down to so that he can change.. how can we like students help to give constructive yet seemly hurting words.. and thus he definitely can mark down or mark up a person.. juz due to the response on his performance.. no annoynomous kinda status.. sighs...
ok off wif the bad things.. i was like i went to BB talk today after sch... then it was like wow.. i am definitely veri veri keen on it.. haha.. after i found the right IG for me.. i decided that i should excel in it.. i mean why waste time.. lol
ok the uniform n the banner up liao.. all we need is the alteration of bottom and also the fact that we seriously need way way much more commitment.. oh yea.. one thing.. pls fast tomo.. cluster fast.. i hope... i mean dun use this to prevent the food to tempt you, but more of it means seriously talking to God!

28/05/06

2006-05-28T23:48:00.001+08:00

4 more days to Emerge 2006; 4 more days to become totally used by God in another way; Strikeforce! NDP here i come!~!~! yea.. for this year my path of ministry is kinda layout liao... once easter over, POS, then NDP then after that hopefully is Christmas production for sound.. i realli wanna be inside! anyway, totally wanna thank God for 1 thing; that i was able to find my ez-link card as i 'lost' it in the trip between expo and tampines.. i remembered clearly that i realli misplace it.. cuz i was definitely holding on to it throughout the chat with ppl gg there to eat.. then i was like.. i lost it! but nvm.. on to beta things..POS viewing was a enjoyable and oso one to realli think about of other stuff.. meaning all the logisitics and administration.. i wan everything to flow well no matter wat.. we will make it! no weapon formed against us shall and will prosper! yea so it was a moment to really tell us to buck up and brush up on everything.. its the last lap guys.. lets run wif joy and excellence; wif prayer and the spirit of passion & excellence present! soo yea went to eat LJS then went we finished then grace joined us.. so we went wallet shopping wif jonathan.. nope i didnt buy anything. juz wanna chill out sia.. then ok.. we went to TM upstairs the usual place to eat.. whos noes? i-scream! yea lol.. it was a black forest and 4 the first time.. i hate the taste.. no offense to the company but i find that cuz i eat too much oily stuff.. very hard to eat something sweet wif a bit of the bitter lasting taste.. spoils the taste in ya tongue! after that need to leave due to commitment in SF.. i realli started to miss ya guys.. so we went to Kallang and Brother Boon was there.. i was like Brother Boon it is you.. i misya soo much... cuz of my lack of appearance in SF.. i feel alienated.. sighs. so it was a real cool day.. i enjoyed it and it was a gd way to end a day where u find ya ezlink card when ya desperate for it! amen!

28/05/06

2006-05-28T23:48:00.000+08:00

27/05/06

2006-05-27T22:24:00.000+08:00

wow.. so today like woke up at like 850! i was like gasp.. so late.. why so late wake up.. (for ppl who dun noe we haf prac today at sports complex in TP) so yea it was a time to zheng up all the minor details and thus it was like sooo fast can finish liao.- i think ended on something like 1230? yea so we went off to eat ban mian( David, Darren, Joanna, Kenneth, Amos, Karen, me) then we went to church if we r serving and for the non-ushers.. we went to tampines mall! yea bought my wooden cross there.. not the big one la.. the small little one.. anyway, then went for svc and i say wow it was awesome man! so awesome i am left speechless! for the sake of not being a spoiler i shall not post it up.. juz be prepared tomo k? so thats is all abt it.. tomo is preview.. 2nd last preview.. muz make sure everything good! ok something i grabbed from joscelin blog.. hope u dun mind..

4 days to EMERGE, to POS.

What do we have in our hands?

It's not about talents or abilities.
It's not about gifts or eloquence.
It's not about experience or age.
It's not about charisma or status.
It's not about position or post.

It's nothing about ' I '.

It's about unity.
It's about passion.
It's about urgency.
It's about making things happen.
It's about working hard.
It's about comittment.
It's about finishing the race.
It's about having faith.
It's about running forward.
It's about submission.
It's about the Vision.
It's about revival.
It's about The Team.
It's about TRP.

We have only 7 days to make things happen. My GOD created the heavens and the earth and all that is in it in 6 days, by working SO hard that He needed a rest. We'll definitely get our rest, but it's not now.

It's not the time to back out now. Far from it, we need to fight on, persevere.

No, it's not going to be like last year. It's NEVER going to be like last year.

With my God, nothing is impossible.

No one's supposed to be negative. No one MUST be negative. We're called TRP, God sees us as a whole. When one person doesn't tithe, the windows of heaven are closed. When one person is negative, the entire team/ body suffers.

61 ordinary people, 1 extraordinary dream.

25/05/06

2006-05-25T22:59:00.000+08:00

yo back supa early today.. finally.. able to rest supa early.. YES! anyway, it was like role-playing today and i was like half-way left liao.. i mean i left at like the 3rd scene.. so sad.. anyway, the whole class doing the role-play and it muz haf been tremedous fun cuz well.. our class enjoyed role-play! haha.. anyway, yea today went off to Egames for CS.. but needless to say we lost.. it was a round robin.. meaning the most amount of wins in a group will move on to the quarter finals.. lol.. anyway, lets not focus on this but yet focus on the fact that 2 teams managed to enter quarter finals.. gif them a hand sia! soo yea anyway, we were supa proud of our achievement nonetheless cuz our team realli have pros inside.. pros that headshot u in 2 shots... consistantly! so yep.. i am able to put myself in a level that i can accept losing to pros... and 2 most important thing is.. that we did not lose our cool and we had a good time of fellowship during, before and after it! so yea thx for all ya prayers even though we not in.. nvm.. souLegacy will try harder next yr.. i hope it will still b there...

25/05/06

2006-05-25T00:28:00.000+08:00

okok..so today was a fine day turned sick at 1226am of 25/05.. euu man.. i will post more later. ok firstly, thoroughly enjoyed lesson today except for the part faccie caught me saving my game of TFT in class. that was supa bad lor.. it was the game from after break.. too absorbed.. God take it away from me in class.. keep me from this temptation or breakthrough me in this area of self-discipline.. anyway, went down to TCC after that.. it was like wow.. soo fun sia.. all the stunts are in place but yet there was one thing missing.. the spirit to run the last lap of the race.. it was like supa tiring to see people everywhere falling ill and not getting into the best form for Emerge06.. we realli realli gonna pray abt this area and edify our brethren.. this way we will uphold each of us and that we maybe a bride that Christ has come to claim. so still working on the stunts part..still cant confirm 90% can do reload for that matter.. sighs.. like machiam no feeling.. but lets focus on the positive.. we did a supa high basket toss and im proud of it.. technique lies in keeping the hands relax... not tensed..wow.. revelational.. hold on to things in a way like u can put it down and move on and it will propel u further cuz no setbacks are gonna hold u back.. so finally able to see the final day formation in my head..wif a bigger picture of everything.. i tend to be able to focus cuz i noe i can help to build a big picture of revival in TRP juz by my small role in my group. anyway, was like went we left TCC, onli Darren, Jonathan Teo and me onli went to eat. so was like talking abt the CS competition today.. cuz it is passed 12 ok so today alrdy. so yea.. wish us all the best & for the 4 groups.. see each other at least in quarterfinals.. can? yea soo was talking abt Dota oso.. but then when we reach then Darren say Darren was joining us.. lol.. then Calynne came wif 2x Ling..lol.. well then we ate and talk and crap and all kinds of nonsence..soon after it was time to go.. i hate this kind of times..cuz we realli luv each other company.. miss ya alrdy! when in MRT playing com.. lol joy of laptop..
Anyway went home saw that i haf 6 emails and this is supa sick.. pm me if u wanna watch but pls dun cuz it is sick.. reading it is bad enuf.. it is all the details u need.

Ladies,

This is a bit sad to watch. Never thought that such a thing exists. I have seen the picture b4, but not the clip. Ladies this could happen to you and Guys this could happen to your wife, girlfriend, and partner so please BEWARE, and also warn others. It has been reported that this is happening in Zimbabwe as well, please make sure you iron your undergarments before you wear them and make sure that your clothes are ironed when they are dry and not damp. The picture is horrible but I felt that I should share with you.

~After anthropologist Susan McKinley came back home from an expedition in South America, she noticed a very strange rash on her left breast. Nobody knew what it was and she quickly dismissed it believing that the holes would leave in time. Upon her return she decided to see a doctor after she started developing intense pains. The doctor, not knowing the exact severity of the disease, gave her antibiotics and special creams. As time lapsed the pain did not subside and her left breast became more inflamed and started to bleed. She decided to bandage her sores however as Susan's pain grew more intense she decided to seek help from a more certified doctor. Dr. Lynch could not diagnose the infection and told Susan to seek the aid of one of his colleagues who specialized in dermatology whom was sadly on vacation. She waited for two weeks and finally was able to react the dermatologist. Sadly, a life changing event was about to unfold during her appointment. To Miss McKinley's surprise, after she removed the bandages, they found larva growing and squirming within the pores and sores of her breast. Sometimes these wicked creatures would all together simultaneously move around into different crevices. What she didn't know was that the holes were in fact, deeper than she had originally thought for these larvae were feeding off the fat, tissue, and even milk canals of her bosom.~

23/05/06

2006-05-23T21:41:00.000+08:00

hih all.. sry for the double blogging if ya did see it.. dun noe wat happen oso.. anyway, if anyone is offended by the previous post i apologise first, cuz it is onli my personal view on the whole thing.. maybe i did not see some parts of it and thus assume it from my misguided perspective.. i noe that everyone has put in hard work and that is precisely the point why i do not want our time and dedication to the whole thing not be appreciated and rewarded correspondingly. anyway, i found out that comin up wif the stunts is difficult, the same way everyone else might find something.. heard the song till my head like wanna crack liao still need to fine-tune it. anyway, i will be doing 2 different formation; one is the one i propose and the other the one that we have stuck to from the start. sooo yea.. anyway, feeling a bit like an emotion roller coaster- the kind in the show final destination 3.. sry la.. seriously supa foul mood.. thus i wan to take this opportunity to ask for your forgiveness and your understanding before anything happen.. dun noe how the thought of not-edifying one often come from and has turned to criticisms. sooo pls forgive me if i say some of this words but pls forgive me wif understandin.. not for the sake of forgiving cuz i dun wan your to lower yourself down to my level.. gonna rise up and pick myself up again.. pls pray for me.. thx!~

22/05/06

2006-05-23T09:42:00.000+08:00

yo... my head is seriously sooo painful sia.. cant imagine it will get that bad.. now cant even talk without feelin pain sia.. anyway, yesterday the pain serve as another reason.. it gives me a chance to talk to God bout another thing.. then i realise we can realli do soo much more for the formation even if we only doing simple stunts.. i dun noe how it will be receive but at least i share abt it rite?
ok its not soo much about the changing the placement of flyers.. but more of making the best out of the elevate, pop, hitch, sweep and full ex, with the special stunts like pop twist and liberty to win the crowd at the right time. cuz the music seems to be repeating itself.. it is a task to change between one stunt to another cuz every 2 bars all the moves muz be a pop, sweep or toss cuz it end on a cheeky kinda sound. i was thinking that the hype of the event should not be the great liberty and other stunts but rather the way one stunt go up after another. (for ya info, i heard that the stunts level for the secondary is quite high, wif liberty and other stuff.) with time definitely not our side, i think one simple yet impactful one need to be done and no longer explore the different kind of stunts to do. i noe this will definitely draw attention and criticisms and maybe even the thoughts of impossibility to do it cuz Henry and the rest have come up with the ideas and has edited it, no offense bro but it juz won't look nice.
i will load my idea on chc_trp yahoo.com for ya to infer to and tag me on ya choice if ya wanna use Henry's stunts formation or mine.. no offense and no competition, juz wan to make sure it will turn out beautifully on that day, even if we need to chiong alot..

21/05/06

2006-05-21T22:46:00.000+08:00

sooo.. today was emotionally trying.. supposed to come to church wif 2 frien but lets not talk abt it.. anyway, today prayer meeting was seriously impactful... sooo impactful i finally am able to stop running away or keep falling into this area of sin and begin to start to totally take care of it. ok for those who didn't attend today PM.. it was a very trying one for the first 20 min... seriously, it was the 20 min i thought i haf wasted.. i was like, God where u? i couldnt feel the presence, i couldnt feel the touch. i was soo pissed off that i wanted to get out of my seat and simply walked out.. then i realised why not i gif it a try? walked out, but to the pathway there and see if haf any difference.. for ppl who dun noe me that well.. i veri expressive person.. when praising God and worshipping.. i wanna sit at the end of the row.. cuz haf more space. so yea went out to pray. it was like after we prayed for the 2nd item then it hit me.. the presence was sooo strong.. all my haris was standing on ends.. even the hair on my head seems to haf a life of its own..cuz that was God's way of telling me He shown up! then pastor say lets pray that we dun be people of innocence, but people like a Daniel.. (P.S... thats my CS nick D@n!e1_90h) lol.. so yea.. i was thoroughly impacted cuz it shown something.. i was not a person who studied Daniel alot.. juz seem to be a nice name.. now haf a meaning behind it. anyway, pastor wanted to pray about the youth in our church to stop the temptation of sexual sins.. then it was like Pastor Kong was like Lord, keep your people pure despite them being in the world, Devil, i lose your control over the people who is trapped in sexual sins (or something like tat).. i was immediately taken aback.. i was like i felt the sin of this area was broken all of a sudden.. gonna fast it out to show it!
Sooo.. today prac for TRP was a dry run-through.. so yea i not doing jazz and hip-hop part 1 cuz i am standing at the back :( nvm lor..i mean it is for a team.. so yea it doesnt realli matter if i can say, hey i did jazz for TRP and (if we win) i help them win one leh. i mean as a team we should look at a team not an individual performance.. wan individual go for preaching challenge lor, personal testimony lor..not need come POS show one.. cuz the realli committed ppl dun care if they are shown at all!
Anyway, saw someone b4 her svc today.. and i was like oh gosh is that u.. u haf become sooo pretty.. i wanted to say that but my CGL was there and we rushing to gif me BS... so yea.. i found out i still haf feelings for her.. lets see if it last!

21/05/06

2006-05-21T00:31:00.000+08:00

realised something while msning.. my feelings for her has faded over juz 1 week.. i was like shock lor.. i was like how can i treat feelings sooo lightly, if i did intend to further it, it will not last lor..wahlao weh.. supa sian sia.. anyway, decided that i will let God decide my feelings for me.. too tired to do all this kind of thinking by myself.. will simply dun care abt it.. i mean seriously, who would wan a guy wif my kind of looks espicially when it is dam common that ppl are gg for looks in this range of age.. im like beast, u need to find the inner beauty and in this youth age where MOST ppl are juz looking for external beauty, it is a definite no for others for me cuz it juz aint gonna happen ppl. i mean i will be like i be the one tugging the gal i set my eyes on and not ppl set eyes on me.. haf become supa complacent abt this kind of things.. sooo:::::
this led me to this.. juz wanna treasure all the friendship i haf over the years; espicially the CHC friends i haf make.. without ppl like sean, eugene, suzanna, samantha, sarah, roy and hensa.. i would've backslidden.. i was sooo obsessed wif that kind of thing i was even willing to sacrifice the flock of sheep i haf been put over to protect juz to satisfy it. thank ppl in POS 2005 who make the impact on me to nv let God go, no matter how bad things become.. and special thx to keneeth from the same BS group as me cuz without the line u said abt God raising up 3 person but only one is able to trust God to lead him through tough times totally changed me.. thxx bro!

20/05/06

2006-05-20T19:49:00.000+08:00

wow.. today sermon was like a emphasis on wat God shown me on last sun.. the idea that prayer shld go beyond the thought of juz making sure that you pray about things you are not comfortable with, it shld be like the talk i haf with Sean at Tiong.. i new that if i met sean at the control station without gg out.. i juz cant do it la.. like friends bidding goodbye when they haven even say hi. sooo yea went out even though like waste 2.40 but nvm.. we talk and talk and talk.. then realised something oso, dun rush ya talk wif God.. like i was talking to sean than after like a long while.. i was like wat time issit.. cuz Bro Weilun comin.. so i kept lookin at my watch and this causes another impact.. u feel that u cant draw yaself away if ya relationship is strong.. tats why christian faith shld include more and more prayer time not cuz God forces ya to.. but cuz a realli good relationship makes ya wanna spend more time on it.. its like an ecstasy, u take it, fall in luv wif it and is addicted to the luv, not the commitment.. commitment comes like a thing you wanna do, not need to do. anyway, left in a hurry and went home..but not b4 gg to buy deck of cards but now regretting it.. the feeling of the card not there.. dun like buggy playing card liao.
so went for CGM, there it was like dry in the first part but once sermon started it was like wow.. we're in God's presence. then went worship came it realli reminded me abt the quiet place.. the quiet time.. God wanna speak to ya onli when and onli if
1) u dun rush Him, its a relationship, not a fast food outlet, ya dun go there wif wat u haf and expect God to microwave 4 ya!
2)ya in a quiet place, God simply luv speaking softly, and not that kind to make a gala entrance in a limo of clouds and a loud thunderous setting.. he tend to come in when ya totally commited to gif up all ya doing to let Him in, not second choices like after 1 hr if God dun come, im gg to bed!

so yea, now u noe why enoch onli walked wif God 4 so short time b4 he was like gone! he was like talking and talking and God shld haf said one of this; "Jesus, he noes too much, beta bring Him up!" or " I talked wif him like tat soo mafan, might as well bring him up here and talk easier to find him, no need to go all the way down to earth to find him."

yea so after CG went down to Pardiz Centre to play CS... i felt in my spirit that i wasn't suppose to go there... guess who was right? GOD of course.. well it seems tat jonathan cancel the meeting cuz onli 3 person gg.. so yea he was supa diligent, kept calling but since my phone went for repair nv receive messages or call.. so yea went there waste time.. anyway, he apologise like dun noe wat but i was reminded that bad things do happen to good people, but at least there are two outcome; you breakthrough in this area, or you decide to accept that life is like tat and all the good things u enjoy u began to treasure! so cool sia!

20/5/06

2006-05-20T10:28:00.000+08:00

hihi.. sorry to blog sooo late.. yesterday sooo happy and sad that dun haf POS A_@... lol cuz it was like i miss ya guys from TRP.. cant wait to meet again.. but like the Bible says; the spirit is willing the flesh is weak.. but who cares! im gg to shine for Him in POS! We haf alrdy went pass the stage where we realli dun care abt winning.. serious.. i mean if u wanna win ur get a paid choreographer or something.. then we like get uniform for all different aspects.. like dance jazz one uniform, hip hop one uniform and cheer one uniform.. siao one.. not that i saying that we are sloppy.. but the fact that our focus is not the mache voucher but to tell the rest of the ppl in Emerge that we TRP r EMERGING as a whole new generation for Jesus Christ to take the campus by storm... we are not only talking about it, we're doing it! yea soo like i realli realli miss ya ppl.. like i miss sweating it out with ya, going to the vending machine to buy drinks for ya cuz ya are soooo tired and sometimes i oso get this kinda of treatment too!! thx for the buying of drinks.. serving in small ways... anyway, nothing to fear, cuz souLegacy is trainin wif another team for CS com today! at Douby Ghaut! haha.. actually we dun mind if we dun get in cuz as long as we had team spirit, nothing will be against us.. even God say that when the ppl were like defing Him in building the Tower of Babel. soooo that brings me back to Emerge itself.. wanna juz say a veri veri BIG THANKS to all of ya. to all the TP students for the chance to collaborate wif ya and to do such a great JOB! to all the RP students who are willing to rush after school for prac, be it in TP or RP.. ya guys rox the campus!

17/05/06

2006-05-18T00:51:00.000+08:00

suppy sia.. this issue is also as usual is dedicated to POS! was on my way to TP when i realised smt; there was onli me and joanna gg.. gasp.. so i decided to ask her sincerely the question; u wanna take the MRT?( wat were ya ppl thinking sia?) cuz the cab fare is like 7 yusof ishak each so not cheap sia.. and still got uniform to settle! anyway, realli found otu where ya treasure is, the heart of the person is. well, so realise that taxis are gg to earn lotsa money from us but dun care, cuz if God can bring money through me can bring money to me!!! well, so today was one of the best day in POS, cuz i learn the hiphop till zhai liao!~! so yea so cool the dance is absolutely captivating! and i also got my flyer up for at least 2.5s so cool sia.. now to head on to greater glory! anyways, found out that my heart and soul is totally captivated into stunts and dance, my love for art will never fade out! anyway, i think i using too mani anyways rite.. same like my class keep using basically.. lol.ok this might be a bit of a prayer request, i injured my elbow today... dun noe how it occured, it is not that painful till cant base but i just wanna make sure that by this week it will be completely healed and yea shine for God in the largest capacity of myself without any injuries or things like sickness.. gonna start making sure that prayer is kept to the first priority in TRP.. cuz it is one of the many things that separate us from performing groups outside, beside the fact that we haf the supernatural strength to last us or things like cheering for a greater cause than the score on the scoreboard, we're cheering on the revival board for souls that is located in heaven! this shld gif ppl more insights on what to expect from this yr group.
ok on to my last point, i realli sincerely hope that GOD pls help me put on weight! i seriously putting on weight in the wrong area. hope that once saturday morning is freed up, i will be able to use it to head down to the gym and pump some serious iron.. been awhile since i did that. anyway, gd news! my friends that i haf been reaching out to said that they maybe comin for Svc this week; and wat is even more amazing is tat they are willing to wake up at 7 to reach church 4 9am svc.. for me it is a great sacrifice! this was a booster maybe for me to realli trust Him for revival abt in my class. since we're going to be together for onli ard 5 more months, best to get them on fire for Him, then when they shuffle the grouping then let them be the light igniter in their new class! all the best to all TRP harvesters who are reaching out to frien. 2 things to note. firstly, our first calling to Him which Henry told the few of us yesterday, that prayer and fasting is the only tool to bring about revival! so yea improve on that. secondly, do not gif up on doing good, cuz in due time u will reap IF u dun lose heart!
ALL the BEST in YOUR upcomin EXAMS for TP ppl.. keep ON shining!

16/05/06

2006-05-16T23:46:00.000+08:00

first on the list, bday to Edmund of W299.... *get carried away in happy bday song*.. ok back! well all the best in being a base in South, shining 4 God in ya sch and the fact that ya an amazing bro a brother in christ can ask 4, being who u are.. ur personality of always having smt installed in ya mind keeps me always from noeing the true-blue Edmund!.. sry tried to call u but u nv answer!.pray that ya will be safe during prac and that ya will shine even more for God in sch!
ok next, i went down 4 POS today despite fact that ppl will be gg 4 PM at church, dun care cuz i dun haf! anyway, that is no main reason! hafing fun wif ppl like TRP will ensure u tat u will not onli put on a good show 4 ppl 2 say wow! but 4 ppl 2 feel tugged to bring abt revival! burden to me to bring revival 2 W16M.. dun care if my classmates are reading this cuz i m shining 4 Christ! so yea even though we sweat every trainin go back drop dead like log still dun care, not even being sick can prevent me from comin.. not even the cab fare, i will come even if i haf to take the train! its not juz the fellowship and the responsibility 2 TRP, but the main thing is that if 1 not here, it is like missing a finger, the body cant function as well as it can. it is like the dipiction of the modern church as the body and until all is won 2 Christ, the body will not be complete and ppl who haf sacrificed would not be glorified! btw, i m learning the dance for hip-hop and i wanna learn both, even if i onli get 2 perform 1, still dun care.. so cool tat dun learn veri ker-xi. thx 2 all the dancers in being so chiong todae, like repeat the track like 9 times wassit? it is cool sia to sweat it out as a team and i m njoying every moment of it! ok on our way back aft dinner at TM at 2200hrs, we met, guess* Freddy! haven seen him in awhile sia so fellowship at the traffic light then looking 4ward 2 seeing ya all tomo.. ok off the not onli learn but also to master the dance.. thats all folks 4 2dae!

16/05/06

2006-05-16T01:04:00.000+08:00

okok my first over 12midnight blog.. anyway, yea today POS was supa fun la but b4 i get into tat, lets talk abt school.
well sch was such an enjoyable day till the 1st breakout; saw that i got a C for science. sighs.. all cuz of poor time management, realli need to improve on that or it will be an area i will always get stuck on. like Pst Phil's book on the wheel of life, the area u always get stuck on will stay wif u foreva till u decide to do smt 2 make smt to change the situation. its like God's way of reminding u; " I cant take u to the next lvl till u broke through in this area." many times we think tat if we suffer a constant downfall it becomes a mentality of failure which i can assuredly admit i haf been stuck in some situation b4. i haf accepted the truth that problem is the beginning of a breakthrough ahead but i haf yet to gone to a point where it is part of my DNA structure in my noggin.
okok onto more positve matters. POS was great. it was not only a time to train, we broke through from the stage on putting on a gd show to making sure that we does it Jesus way wif care and prayer! it realli paid off even in the least significant way; it changes mentalities. we were finally able to say boldy not proudly that we are realli one body in TRP! so yea did a few higher lvl stunts like prep to full-lib and oso a supa high b-toss 4 Joanna but still nd 2 fine-tune the landin or else she confirm haf a few cuts here or a bruise here so b4 it even strikes lets be prepared.
TRP is breaking through to not juz a gd show but a place where commitment to one calling to bring about revival; not juz talk abt it!

What i wan in a gal (blog game)

2006-05-14T22:04:00.000+08:00

What i 1 in a gal- blog game.. end here!
Gender: male.. duh?
1) ok first she's gotta be someone i can always relate to.. ok maybe too greedy liao.. some disagreement welcomed, cuz Pst Phil said that onli through experiencing something can u be changed.. sorry too impacted by the msg.. anyway, check out my icon under mii for some stuff some of ya may haf missed during fri conference.
2) muz definitely be pretty! okok say i am like all guys, goes for looks but our church has gals wif brains and beauty; hows that for a church!
3)both of us MUZ luv each other, or else i end up hafing a crush on her or she become my stalker.. argh!
4) positve minded-though can afford to whine once in a while, whine a bit haf cuteness, whine too much, become lao ah mah.
5) able to go through the worst wif me.. cuz i definitely screw up lotsa times when i am an adult, its not a curse but ppl whom i told my destiny to will understand.
6)muz definitely be an on fire christian, no matter if she's serving the same ministry or different ministry, as long as she's a person who can help me walk closer to God and me help her too.
7) lastly, darn it dun noe what to write about.. oh yea she muz definitely noe how to dress up cuz i dun like gals who dress shabbily.

'ok on to sunday happening in church'

we had one of the better trainins at church and it shows that it was fruitful time spent on it.
anyway, went to support motion crew for the filmin of some openin during emerge.... may get to see me.. dun noe.. later they see me like machiam dun noe the cheer then they take me out oso possible. anyway, here's the cheer

m-o-t
i-o-n
e-f-f-e-c-t-s
fight the fight
dance the dance
beat the beat
box the box
oh i forgot 2 bring the box
m 4 motion
e effect
they dance they rock
they do beat-box
they dance they rock
they do hip hop
wooo

\ anyway, all the best to all emerge participants for both juz for the conference and oso the events.. realli try to make time next yr.. worth every single min u spend on it... serious! oso wanna wish all participants in events this yr all the best/

P.S.> anyway, TRP ya did a great job, ya were AWESOME!

2006-04-08T20:42:00.000+08:00

yea back from outer space.. sry cant blog cuz i was kinda freaking busy.. busy wif prep for school, POS, easter etc.. u noe the drill soldier... so yea.. i felt like i realli came back from fighting in the war or smt.. cant even stop my head from spinning.. sighs.. like machiam haf prob recalling wat i did.. okok

1) POS is dam* great.. i noe i haf censorship.. anyway, was like we need to do hurkeys, toe touches, front touches, side kickup, possibly every kind of cheer jump there is. proud to announce i m a base.. not the nwa nwa base but a base so jia onli ppl almost twice my weight can come close to comparision.. i m serious.. i was like given the base that is supa fast learner.. i mean my whole group.. so yea the onli group that can learn reload, ex, pop, sweep, full ex all in 1 day!!! so cool.. so yea now i doing the jump and also the cheer.. so cool..

2) need to prepare for my school.. my FOP is starting..so yea i hope that i will excel in class..hope to become top 5% in the whole of my course and module.. pray that God will help me

3) well then there is emerge events.. like the hosting and preaching challenge.. i need to do well in all...

4)then there is oso the strikeforce performance.. so yea i am kinda of packed for now.. be backed soon to blog more

couldnt believe that i left her behind and move on,but a part of me wants to stay wif her

290306

2006-03-29T23:27:00.000+08:00

well today trainin was supa fruitful like wat jocelyn said at the end.. all the stunts that we "target" to do was done.. to the most that we can. well now officially in dance.. so yippy for me and bu for u cuz no matter wat i onli still like dance that is energetic and not enjoyable kind.. so yea to put in lay-man's term, i cant groove well.. sighs i even told them tat i wouldnt mind being the mascot for the performance.. i haixu mar.. lol sia.. anyway, finally we are progressing in my opinion.. no more basics.. which was like soooo much faster than last yr.. no insult to south but realli that this yr was supa fast-paced.. we alrdy "mastered" toss and even haf a whole sequence agreed up but yet it is still subject to changes as usual.. well, the stunts are comin on perfectly and it is now me shifting my whole focus into dance.. well kelly wanted me to be a base cuz she say i quite gd bt yea still cant got over last yr incident.. still base for ppl sometimes, flyer too and also lifter but ask me to be a permanent person doing this kinda of stuff.. no no man.. this is not the time yet that is wat i will say..yea anyway, sry to all TRP who came to my blog & was disappointed cuz i nv post up the pic.. dun worrie will upload in our own private MSN group.. tag me if u wanna join and onli strictly for TRP onli.. hehe.. i m mean.. *evil grin*..well so yea we ended the day by going to somerset and eat.. i was like open my eyes to a whole new area.. i always thought tat stuff behind the hotel is the high class kinda of stuff till Mabelline took us there.. there was one of the best east meet west kinda of concept.. cuz they provided spagetti and jap food.. my fav.. but sadly none of my fav is there.. but nvm.. i still will stick to liking Jap food best.. next to korean ban mian that is..so yea ended the whole thing wif usual CHC style.. clearing the extras.. so we played; 3up, 4up and 7up.. so was ding-donging away and ppl keep finishing the watermelon.. it is healthy ok.. so yea at ard 930, everyone return home.. haiz.. anyway, juz haf my bath.. so yea.. i kinda of tired cuz aswin and weilun my frien not my cgl wanna meet for breakfast tomo.. so yea off to bed and still need to meet Bro weilun my cgl tomo nite for dinner.. been a while since we sat down 1 on 1 and talk abt stuff..

just when u think the person u had focused on is the one for u, someone else come along and take ur breath away, but u realised u haf been playing urself..

280306

2006-03-28T21:18:00.000+08:00

well today chiong outta house like dun noe wat.. a rabbit on the rabbit and turtle race.. was like chiong ah then when reach church then realise they push the time back 1hr.. so yea was of to jurong street 91 to do nothing lol.. so went to get some oil removal paper.. like the first time.. yippy.. finally all the oily feeling dun haf for all day..
well in POS is like boring cuz i cant do a flyer job.. so yea i not that well rounded.. sighs.. well then there is the usual stuff like learning pop and sweep and full ex and basket toss... so yea i m indeed bored.. so anyway gonna be doing dance soon. i hope.. i cant dance.. well that is.. sighs.. anyway, this is gonna be a fun year cuz got a lot of elder bros and sistas in so of course u will catch on things like being mature in christ and stuff like how to relax the whole team when ur tired... so yea this is all for the words.. now for some funky or funnie pic by me.. without me that is.. she insist on taking 3 pics.. so yea.. oh yea still haf pic ppl wan me to post up.. the formation..
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270306

2006-03-27T22:10:00.000+08:00

yo back from gym training.. sighs.. well the muscle group on my arms, back, thighs, calfs & chest. so yea, my arm is like a supa hard then supa soft.. scared later tomo go the trainin for POS supa sian cuz the body supa tired alrdy b4 i go to bed.. sighs.. well finally push myself to the max by doing like 5 sets of 15 bench press, leg push, 3 sets of 10 bar lift of 15kg, 4 sets of 20 on biscep curl. so yea my arm is concentrated on today cuz dun haf adominal crunch.. well then went for a heavy meal which consist of 1 fish and chip which is a 4/10 score and a chicken cutlet rice which i rate also quite common. so yea but then went home and zhuo bou.. no one online to talk.. pm or call me pls.. i veri desperately doing nothing.. nvm i look forward to tomo POS.. see ya all there

27306

2006-03-27T09:52:00.000+08:00

well sorry for not posting yesterday.. came home like 1am? yea so my mom was nagging me to slp.. so yea. well yesterday went for svc then dun noe why for no reason i all of a sudden i tot of her.. sighs.. think i haf yet to get over her.. well then went to help out at the stage to rearrange the platform for the keyboard and the brass instrument, then john was like, oh there was a drum sales at the sims branch of swee lee.. he bought his drum set for $899.. sighs.. supa sians like that here from ppl.. well then the SF guys had a all guys talk on all sorts of stuff at the Jazz Pub.. lol.. keep talking abt the creation of woman and then man and God nv had any rest anymore.. joking ah ladies out there.. it is a joke.. ok then i was like there keep on mugging for word power.. sighs supa tiring trying to mug 20 verses. well now noe liao.. supa confident to take the test. well then we like went up to coffee bean to find CGL then the whole cg was like not there.. lol.. well then decided to do wat SF does well, mingle and drum.. tried out mallet v 1.2 beta.. all thx to NIC!!! the strikeforce thx u!! oh yea, did i mention i got my camera back.. well yea pics by rahlet is at the btm of this post so enjoy!! can onli take 1 photo after she take like 20.. shucks need to get a 1GB MD card. yea so after that took a long long trip to the dining area.. i wasnt like looking forward to it so sian. well then ended up like eating 18 course meal.. buffet la.. eat all u wan kinda dinner.. but they keep bringing the stuff u order out. so yea.. 7 chef choice, 6 starters, 1 dessert and the rest is anyhow call dish.. so sick now.. later still need to go TP gym to train for POS!! yippy!!.. so yea then we went to bugis play Outrun 2.. my cousin was like supa lost when she lost her EZ link card.. darn it... she say she put at the back pocket then she noe jolly well that well it will somehow slip out cuz her jeans is like so tight.. lol.. not that i particularly took a close observation.. that is simply pervertic.. sick.. well sent her home then went home..

shuck.. blogger got some bug so cant upload.. sorrry T.T

stained glass masquerade

2006-03-25T21:49:00.000+08:00

CASTING CROWNS LYRICS

"Stained Glass Masquerade"

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small

Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they'll soon discover
That I don't belong

So I tuck it all away, like everything's okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I'll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them

Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation's open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone who's been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who's traded
In the altar for a stage

The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be

Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay

On some one request i decided to share this wif all.. try to find the song.. i noe the name veri long but it is worth the search

Busy Day 4 me

2006-03-25T20:27:00.000+08:00

well today woke up wif a jolt.. was like my mom kindly reminded me to like wake up at 830 like dun noe how mani times but still woke up at 9.. sobs.. anyway, jolt out this morning and has been running around since morning till like 6pm when i finally went for a 1hr nap. i went to RP(again..) then my mom was like this one not good that one not good cuz she wasnt in a good mood. then later at RP havoc reign.. chiong here for marticulation, chiong there for photo taking then nv even try smiling cuz my ^&*# ulcer is still there.. no offense but juz dun like to u damn in public not the 4 letter word every1 was hoping for.. sry folks.. anyway, look like that drag me outta bed and ask me took a pic which is like that.. ouch painful ulcer.. then this gal in like 2nd yr wanted me to like join FOP(freshmen orientation programme).. so polite then i gif her the SL face.. cuz realli realli painful cant even talk properly. so yea juz followed her along and decided to sign up first so as not to absolutely appear like a mommy-boy cuz i din bring cash wif me today and everything juz keep asking from my mom.. sighs* well went to the highlight of the day... LAPTOP.. there my mom insisted that i get a fujistu laptop and i was like i dun trust that brand at all.. then ended up wif a sulky face buying acer travelmate.. so cool.. 1 more gadget in my wishlist down.. only like 10 more or so.. haha.. so yea when i like claim my laptop it was like so God given blessing.. cuz my receipt 346 and like they cut ppl who come after 349.. praise God sia. so yea when to bugis in 960 and keep worrying that i took the wrong bus but it was like the right bus.. then went there to get a DCshoecoUSA like for $29.. yea i m on a freaking tight budget.. i hate that.. anyway, luv my back.. its black Halleulujah finally can choose my own bag.. i mean besides my drumstick bag and my converse bag which unfortunately gave way to me running down a slope.. lol. yea so went to Queensway and it was a futile search of shoes as i cant find a pair that can match my taste and my budget. so came home slept then had to make a choice to totally do something abt the ulcer.. but still haf the pus there.. shucks.. still gonna put some salt in it.. and RUB and RUB till it is totally gone.. shucks man.. anyway, tomo will be like my first time meeting my cgm for this week.. keep cant go for cg la, bs la, etc.. and i realli realli need to get well cuz we going to the gym on MONDAY.. to train up for POS.. well then tomo cant go for MTT.. sighs.. i realli will miss church this week.

~the moment u left her and u turn ard for a second look and she continued, u noe it is time to leave it behind~

shucks

2006-03-24T20:13:00.000+08:00

shucks man my stupid ulcer is getting to me.. the thing that stands out from the cracked lip of mine wif the greenish bit on top is sure to send all ladies who read my blog b4 they got to slp a horrible nightmare on lip locking wif their bf wif such treatment.. lol.. jkjk.. it hurts so much that i rather eat noodles than rice.. so pain that the salivary glands keep producing enzymes that seems to be going nowhere but remain in my mouth as an irritation.. shuck..*saliva flies* oops.. anyway also still feeling sick from the flu.. snif snif.. shucks man needed to push both cg and bs off my list of to-do cuz of this.. shucks.. sianz.. i hate doing nothing and resting all day long.. the throat of mine seems that someone operated on my oesophagus and left a whole ball of cotton wool in it and sew everything bad... wif the ball of wool wif lotsa water or something.. its seems that my mouth and my nose are sooo related that they refuse to go sick one by one.. but like to yo nan tong tan, yo fu tong siang..( share the sorrows as well as the joys).. shucks.. when i can enjoy good food wif my tongue my nose refuse to stop working for a day and not detecting the sweet scent given off.. well realli need to get well by sat which is tomo.. cuz i going to but shoes and laptop and bag.. at bugis!! so cool finally my mom allowed me to choose the place to buy my stuff after much deliberation that i will overspend every single cent on things i ended up regretting.. which is i stress onli ONCE.. stupid converse log bag strap cant take a run downslope of less than 5 sec & by the time i reach the bottom, the strap broke.. grumble grumble.. anyway, my friends came over to visit me today.. yea i noe this is not something i expected but seems like they also came over for stuff like how to improve a blog.. yea so was kinda busy for the next few days, so if never blog pls forgive and forget but i try to blog everything that happens in the very exciting and busy day...~Sayonara~

Once u shared all wif her, now u realised that all she ever meant to u meant nothing cuz u nv shared anything, u compromise on everything u talk to her abt.

Boring Day

2006-03-23T19:45:00.000+08:00

well sia... today woke up feeling that it was a saturday.. a feeling i totally detest.. if u know me well enuf.. u will noe that i DUN like waking up wif nothing 2 achieve.. thats why i am tot to suppose to be on the ball. well yesterday nite went out wif a church member of mine.. not a cgm.. juz friends at church.. anyway, juz felt that needed to be there for the person. anyway, we walked all ard the whole of like the park at clementi.. so yea this is my first time walking wif someone in the wee hours of the nite... could do some help too cuz help me really relax.. anyway, yea so both of us realli enjoyed the company of each other.. i dun noe about her but i did enjoy her company. anyway, today was supa tired half half.. ( sian jibua).. lol. dun like using chinese slang, prefer to change it to a bit funnie english slang.. well so this was a boring day till Leon decided to meet me for a game of DOTA>Defenders of the Ancient.. anyway, thoroughly enjoyed myself though we both keep getting gb.. no so bad la.. but yea it was fun not for the game but more for the enjoyment to spend wif a frien doing something both of us enjoy.. yea then realised need to memorise bible verses.. gasp.. haf ya?!?! all 20.. anyway, think will try a new method of memory this yr, writing it out till i rmb n not juz saying it out cuz always end up subsituting words and also missing punctuations.. sighs.. even if got in dun noe if can cope.. cuz like got POS, Easter, Preaching challenge, Personal testimony, even maybe.. juz maybe essay competition.. if they open it up for the tertiary category, well need to sign off soon.. need to realli buck up on the verses cuz i wanna be a man enpowered wif verses to conquer.. amen?

P.O.S day 1

2006-03-22T21:25:00.000+08:00

wah supa cool day for me in Day 1 as a TRP representative in P.o.S.. cuz well they started the whole intro thing wif some weird stuff from last yr.. well TRP is like a veri big family.. literally.. cuz we realli can share everything out without the worry of being stepped on or being in a territory u r not suppose to be in.. well today met a lot of ppl and also gain the icon as the South Cluster Person.. lol.. it was like soo cool with the basic stunts.. so mani lao jiao but also haf a lot of new bird.. yeah so the lao jiao of the 3rd yr who are going to be enrolled into NS after they complete their diploma well are supa kind ppl.. so much support juz like last yr this period in South.. feels totally comfortable to share lotsa stuff.. well as a new bird into this group they gave me a huge task to do.. like leading the whole of TRP to echo out their Dreams & Visions.. to be a soul winner all yr round and to do it Jesus style.. yep.. i m the dude u most likely will see saying the cheer to cheer on our fellow campus mates and also to voice our opinion once and for all that TRP all the way!!! yea after a day of 1,2,down,up and doing toe touch & cartwheel, feel so tired that even no energy to eat dinner..as in there was not what i call dinner which consists of a bit of rice and lotsa dishes.. seems different.. well then there is still the need that i need to help my frien edit his blog settings.. so that well its more presentable.. sighs.. anyway, we r going to the gym on MONDAY!!! well then there is training on Tuesday.. for all TRP students who r in CHC, i realli urge ya to come down.. this yr will be the best yr yet for us!

Within a moment, everything became clear.. i needed to leave my past even her behind to move on, or else not only i dun grow she does'nt too.. dun keep me like a bird in a cage, set me free!

cant forget her

2006-03-22T10:18:00.000+08:00

well since the end of last yr has tried wif my best to forget her but events followed each other that somehow drew us together.. it turns out even worse yesterday nite when i tried to move towards TRP but still has the tugging in my heart to go back south.. sighs.. its times like this friends of true cause emerges, willing to lend a ear, their time, their advice they noe that u noe that they will say but still wan them to say anyway, the times where u noe that it will not turn out in ur favour but still needed some encouragement to meet the problem or the trips u encounter in ur life... a frien thought me something, its beta to do verbal vomit then let it sink sooooo deep that it produced worse effects on you. a frien will be prepared wif a puking bucket for purposes like this where u need to do verbal vomit and later tell u where u went wrong. sometimes it is juz not the season for relationship to blossom cuz i learnt an important lesson listening to myself.. i once said "If God wans the both of u to stay together, no matter how much u try to separate both of ur.. once ur come together ur can instantly click.Place this relationship down and see if it comes back to u again, if it does she's meant for u and she knows that, if not, well move on." i also realise that relationship issues like this comes when we try too much to blossom the relationship, like giving gifts in the way a farmer waters the flower; too much of it the plants cant stand opposition. relationships are meant to last an eternity, what for the rush to make something that will last sooo long be develop in such a short time?

2006-03-21T13:05:00.000+08:00

found something ur might enjoy reading.. was browsing the net when i found this.. though ur might not find much abt it.. but i think it is my personal fav for todae. a personal burden for all who haf disciples that u need to keep ur check on every NOW and THEN.. pray this will be an encouragement to push on for being given this responsibility. oh yea found that i dun haf enuf for the book Jesus Freak Vol 1 ( the martyrdom for Christ). not expecting anything except that i can lay my hands on it quite soon..hopefully by the 2nd week of next month.. hope my frien n-joy book 2 that i gave him as a farewell gift b4 he migrated to the U.S.A. hope u n-joy it Kinson!!
He who covers an offense promotes love, but whoever repeats the matter( even the person who commit the sin or the person who brings it up again) seperates close friends ~~~Pro 17:9~~~

down wif boredom

2006-03-21T12:50:00.000+08:00

with the holiday bug biting.. sian.. the boredom of life has inevitably went into my life.. it went soo deep that unless i can share what my frien r experiencing for the whole day.. i will be filled with the so sian attitude till i grow bored.. luckily i haf some stuff to haf frien to do.. like learn a supa long and quite advanced tap so that she can learn it from me.. lol.. seems weird but at least it keeps me busy.. oh yea.. juz found out i haf slack behind in my gym trainin this week.. shucks.. need to go to the gym 4 times a week, once to swimming and its alrdy the 2nd day and i haven been anywhere.. sighs.. using gym and swimming to help me gain an acceptable bod for POS and also extreme adventure... its not known as EXTREME 4 nothing u noe.. yea well also need to spend quality time wif my Father in Heaven cuz i realli need all the spiritual build-up b4 the time where i need to use it for preaching challenge and personal testimony and also WORD POWER!! so cool.. yea will be kinda busy once the routine of school kicks in.. POS, NDP, easter and all the rest of the emerge event coming together for 1 and onli one cause through diff channel.. FOR GOD!. yea well, if i haven told ya.. i m in Easter Production tis yr. yea, bro boon is willing to allow me to do something i always enjoy doing.. doing stuff backstage and seeing the awe-filled faces in the dark hall of Expo during the production.. yea i will be helping out in the sound effects of Easter!! yippy..so realli hope i get beta soon.. pls pray 4 me cuz i realli need to stop waking up in the morning wif the acidic feel in my throat as i feel i am going to vomit out the virus and there is a bottle cork stuck in my esophagus.. it is supa depressing sia.. thx for all the prayers in advance.. so yea, decided to realli concentrate in putting on weight.. yippy.. found it is not stuffing ur self.. but making ur self feel full every 3 hrs.. that does change a lot of stuff for me.. come on pile some mass on me.. got a shock when i saw that my bod onli absorb like 30mg of protein everytime i eat.. the rest is well brought to all parts of the bod.. sigh..

~when u care for someone and u found out she is not the one despite all the care u shower, u found out u cheat urself of everything, of love, of time and of a relationship that will go nowhere..

nite at MTT

2006-03-20T12:59:00.000+08:00

well after svc yesterday, went to haf lunch wif my frien aswin!! shock i revealed ya name.. anyway, also met a frien of his.. talk losta stuff then headed to buy some stuff for someone who has placed the something in the wishlist for v.v.v. long liao.. u noe who u are.. anyway, while buying.. realised hp missing!! mayday, need to inform ppl of my whereabouts.. cuz i left my cg to go to harbourfront first.. so use aswin phone to cancel line and also call my cgm.. then later went to sentosa for 30min then left for MTT.. waste of money.. abit..then at MTT haf lotsa laughs like nv did b4 and also took shoe size for NDP uniform.. cool man!! then later went to warehouse.. bro boon asked me if i wanna help out in Easter production.. i juz said .. YES!!! cool man being able to help out a big and important production like this!! well then went to eat at bedok.. seems like that nite the food cant seem to find its way to our stomach.. soooo hungry that we ate each a bowl of minced meat noodles that is the best in the east, satays, $5 i stress $5 fried oyster, $6 chicken wings topped off with lotsa drinks.. then we sat there and talk and talk.. cuz we soo big ppl keep staring over, bro boon made a call which seems like a typical liu mang the boss cuz he was halfway eating chicken drumstick and also talking on the phone.. wif the wrong hands.. chicken wing in left hand to mouth and phone in right hand to left ear.. lol.. then every1 crack the joke that we assembling fight ...lol.. (strikeforce wif a whole new meaning).. well then we all went home.. woke up this morning wif a sorethroat.. sianz.. cough cough.. hope i get well supa soon.. sniff sniff..

yo back wif CAMERA!

2006-03-20T12:12:00.000+08:00

hiya.. firstly wanna make everyone jealous of my cam.. lol. within 2 hrs after i got my A430.. sarah started playing wif it and this is the first pic u ever see on my cam.. shucks she broke my first pic quality..lol.. think was the best pic taken the WHOLE day.. of course la.. my cam wat..lol.. anyway still haf pic from esplanade taken in a hurry and pic from rightclick..except me and cheryl cuz i was doing salsa and well cheryl not there again.. for those wondering abt the creeping hand it is done by bro david in an accidental shot of nic.. lol so creepy tot my cam caught ghost..
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Artistic Pic of that day

seen the other side alrdy?

Karen & Sarah ( Elect+ drummer) After 4 tries

Jeremy & Sarah ( Drummer + bass)

Karen & Jeremy ( Elect+ Bass)

orange juice at Delifrance at Causeway.. waiting 4 Karen to call.

Lost?Maybe not in Esplanade!

For drummers from SF! this pic is for ya!(Esplanade)

Another artistic Spot by Sarah

Last Pic taken in tunnel.. looks like chinatown..lol

finally back

2006-03-18T01:51:00.000+08:00

hi.. sry to all who visit my site and found nothing to read up abt.. anyway.. yeah lets juz start wif today.. i m on my way to buy stuff wif my salary.. yippy.. dots.. anyway, getting a shuffle and a canon a430.. btw for u camera hungry ppl.. here is a web that will let u know wat type of cam to go for..
http://natureatwork.8m.com/Photo%20Tips.htm
anyway byes.. snorz.. slp on keyboard

1 week to posting

2006-02-25T21:52:00.000+08:00

think about it.. most ppl think O level was the worst to see.. but actually it is in my opinion the posting which is the most annoying.. they make u frantic for 3 months then they release the O level results then they make u wait again for another 1 month for the posting.. then they drag and drag then they let u enrol to ur school.. welcome to making new friends!! then later u haf friends that backstab u but that is fun.. not sadistic tone but life would be very boring if all ur friends suck up to u.. so suck up that u cant differentiate ur real friend from ur "friends'.. friends dun suck up.. they may even oppose u if they think in their mind what is best for u.. thats why we need to haf a circle or maybe in my case a veri small group of ppl who are able to stand by u and each affects each other in a good way.. u can affect him to change his diet for his health sake, make him bring friends and to be totally on fire for God! he can affect u to train out in the gym, keep u realli looking out for urself when he is not around.. now i realise why i realli like to develop a friendship first from a very close friend then to an intimate relationship to a marriage than to be attached to a person juz by ur first impression and basing on that move ur way up her good list cuz she might not realli be the one God has planned for u.. to all my disciples in school i always say, years spend wif ur crush is futile cuz its a crush.. its like a sudden craving for chocolate.. it does no good and it is temporary. the friendship u develop also helps u to reach ur destiny for God or the plan or the devil, and because of this i have been making up my mind i only make friends with people from now on that will help me reach my goals for 2006, if not we will still be friends but not so close.. juz a hi-bye kind of friend and maybe some chat but the circle of friends i go out with, share my thoughts and my secrets with will be ppl i can help make them reach their goal and also benefit my goals... i have too long faded the line between hi-bye friend and close friends that i have ended up sharing secrets with the wrong group and getting into lots of entanglement.
ok on to the next subject, i have to set my ex school aside once the new place is given because i might be getting in the way of the new leader and also the new people entrusted to him by the Lord may not be suited for me to handle thats why i am not in charge of them

Ups and Downs

2006-02-21T23:36:00.000+08:00

well from last week till to date.. i haf encountered mountains and valleys faster than a 4 wheeler can overcome the mountains and valleys in real life.. it has consisted of 2 relationship issues, 2 wakes to attend to, 1 hospital visitation, 1 jamming studio experience.. so much so i dun haf time to blog.. ok lets start wif jamming.. me and sean went to jam at lavender there.. Hi Sean if u read this..lol.. anyway, supa big place and the owner asked, so 2 straps la, i bassist and 1 EG.. then i say no need.. we onli checking it out.. sounds ok for all the EG and Bass but sean keep on complaining abt the drum set.. even though it was a double padel dw!! he say the Lazer™ sounds weird, the Trojan™ cymbals and crash sounds off.. but besides that its huge man.. bring our own keyboard the Clique™ can start to jam liao.. 1 bassist- JM, 2 EG( inclusive of 1 Acoustic)- KCMX and daniel90h, 1 drummer- getknifed and 1 whom we still dun noe wat she wanna play.. plus my bro sean also dun noe wat to do.. too mani drummers liao how? get percussionist good rite? so cool.. onli band wif 6 ppl and consists of 1 percussionist!! well then we went to eat dinner and i haf the usual minced meat noodles and boy, was the mushroom good.. its sooo good everytime we go jamming always muz eat.. eat till i sian.. lol... well then there is also the wakes we went to.. the tragic lost of closed ones of 2 strikeforce members.. teaches me this week how fragile is life and so thats why i gave my best frien well my best.. the gospel.. the onli thing to keep him ever happy and an everlasting life is that.. a greatest gift to a friend is life.. so i "gave him the best"yeah so next is the 2 relationship issues dun think need to say liao.. i haf gotten over the both of them and 1 haf become back to a close frien and another lost in the sea of forgotten dreams and hopes; living in my memories.. maybe even dead..well then yeah still haf the time where a zone member encourage me wif this line b4 he left." If u know and trust God can pick u up and toss u down, then why issit some that when God toss u down.. u cant trust Him to pick u up again?"

relationship on the rock? No more!!

2006-02-18T00:25:00.000+08:00

this breakthrough mattered too much that i couldn't juz share it with my leader but i decided to post it up. sorrie brother Weilun

Dear Weilun,

This spiritual diary is for this week and the week... Sorry I couldn’t finish the whole spiritual diary last week. So what happened last week I think I told you on the way back after going to the coffee shop? I told you about my feelings for this girl called Samantha and after hearing your advice on Saturday, I decided to put our relationship as one on a brother and sister level and never to put our intimate relationship on hold but to just be siblings. Yeah, so I was thinking in my heart that I can handled all relationship issues as I have lots of this kind of BGR in school and my school prayer group is falling slowly but surely apart because of this. Then on Thursday, I was at home as I took a day’s leave from work because I was feeling a bit bored in office. So I was at home playing computer games from 9 to 6 pm so typically once my mom reaches home, we had a quarrel and I ended up leaving the house in fury for the gym. While on my way there, I met my past flame; the girl that was in the same cell group as me when I was in Brother Kevin cell group but we never reveal it to him. So when September came and I was asked to transfer over to Sister Veronica cell group w238 and my gf wasn’t I was sort of not happy with the arrangement so I used the excuse that jimmy whom I brought to the cell group needs to stay with me or else he backslide and since there is only 3 sec2 there, I told my cgl to allow all the 3 of us to remain together but that didn’t happen and that’s why I only was able to take only this much pressure from Andrew before I backslided.. doubt you know that but when u called me that Sunday morning, I was thinking suicidal thoughts and also to leave church. So when you called me to join back the cell group, u inspire me to become as on for God as you were but deep down inside I was bottling this feeling until that fateful moment on the way to the gym then I exploded. I asked my friend from FCBC to give me some advice but because I think I reckon it was from a guy’s point of view and as a very close friend, I didn’t heed his advice of letting go and letting God. It was the whole day during work I kept thinking of Joanna and though my performance at work today was splendid because of the urgency to leave as soon as I was done with my duties and also the music I was listening to, I kept it from all the Christian fellowship members in my workplace and it seems that everything was alright or getting better for me. Once I reach home, I didn’t have time to check up on how to contact Joanna again because I needed to do a lot of admin work for my ministry contact head and also my ministry friend who wants the harness for the snare urgently. Then once I was done with the admin work, my friend who is from Joanna school came online and the moment I saw an opportunity I spill my sorrows out to her. She admitted that she knows Joanna and that Joanna is attached. The scene I saw on Thursday came to my mind and I suddenly remembered, she was with another guy! That shocked me momentarily and by the time I recovered my very good friend from Nan Hua who knows her spat something on MSN. She said that Joanna doesn’t like me and I shouldn’t be unequally-yoked with her as she backslided after I change cell group and my friend jimmy also backslided. Then my friend told me that why should I try to go through all the heartaches again by entangling myself again? That was a make or break point for that relationship with my friend I was chatting to. Then she send me photos of Joanna with her bf and that is when I know that I muz let go and let God do all he can do with this mess I am and not struggle with Him training me in this aspect. This must be one of my greatest tombstone to turn into a stepping stone in my life and I thank God for His divine appointment to meet Joanna and also to have it resolve the very next day.

Your Disciple
Esmond

Shack Work..

2006-02-17T17:15:00.000+08:00

wow.. work has become more productive todae.. instead of the usual 250 survey in 1 day.. i hit a record high of 400.. wow so cool when u haf music wif u and the day before u take of.. lol.. also the other half got stuff like need to type out bus route which i onli can do like 4 buses the route but today did 6... cool ma?
yeah on to the yesterday post.. didnt go to work.. play maple and lvl to 40!!! then also complete jane's quest and gav wrathseeker my 60% scroll.. then also went to the gym though sick.. sniff**.. anyway now all the arms and legs all supa pain.. but this beats slacking at home... anyway, after quarrelling wif my mom who will pay the electrical bills after i use com for 6 hr.. went to the gym and on the way there, saw Joanna wif some1 else.. ( brew doubts).. Is she seeing some1? then the thought of how i spent the day always wif her in my mind and also the happy times we haf when we were together.. Joanna where are u? I'm seriously finding u.. u left me without a word.. how was i to change.. how was i to call u again to clear the air? please gif me this chance to claim back my space in ur relationship list pls... If u wanna noe who this Joanna is, she's a Nan Hua Sec 4 (2005 Batch) which means she juz got her results.. same wif me.. anyway, if u noe some1 who match this data.. tag it to me pls.. i am searching desperately for a frien i lost a yr back.. thank you alot!! if Joanna u happen to find me here.. i mean a realli small if.. then could u pls tag me and let me get back to u.. haf been missing u for the past 1 yr but im sorrie nv ask for ur no yesterday.. scared later he realli ur bf then i dun noe wat to sae if he as, "Y 1 my gf no?" *bash, Bash* yeah.. so pls this will be my this yr biggest regret if i dun tolk to u and clear the air.. pls gif me this chance..

( broken by love, onli by seeing u again will the pain be gone or lessen)

the day after V Day.

2006-02-15T21:25:00.000+08:00

the mood has settled down, ppl has become serious and scandals is flying everywhere again.. everything is true for all except the last part.. it onli happens in my company.. anyway..so yeah i woke up late today.. argh.. couldnt help it.. mapling yesterday or shld i say this morning.. anyway, now finally lvl 39.. like enter heaven like tat.. then this cleric sooo good.. or muz haf seen a gal cleric that i use then he is gd.. anyway, gave me lotsa cursed dolls and even a black mage shoe.. better than my white one...anway, one more lvl before i chiong quest.. yippy already haf everything 4 Jane's quest, except moon rock.. my frien wrathy sponsor cuz i gifing him the scroll.. sianz.. my cleric so little cash.. then the hair like crap like that.. need to change liao all else like siao za boh.. yeah.. anyway, soo cool to be back home.. my dad is leading a cg while i blog.. both enjoying what we luv.. haha.. anyway, gonna lead praise and worship for him next week cuz he cg realli needs a guitarist.. i mean not juz for the ambience, but the supa zhao sia (corrupted CD player) haha.. shld'nt laugh.. me also not like american idol™ the kind of standard.. oh well.. yeah so tomo haf plans to go out..*drumroll*.. go gym.. yeah its one of my plans for this year and thank God that i found a gym mate.. haha.. so yeah this is soo cool.

Valentine's Day

2006-02-14T23:43:00.000+08:00

Whew.. Today was so fun.. imgaine when u step into the company you are greeted by happy and cheery people wif bouquets of flowers in their hands ( not 4 u la), a funnie DJ in the background and a cheerful tone instead of the usual stern face security guards.. yeah and people sharing sweet sms-es to each other on how they treasure and love the person.. anyway, was kinda fun.. my big boss jeff not in.. oh no what if jeff sees this... lol.. kk then talk alot but also work alot.. yeah.. then later met up wif jeremey, <3 rrah, and karen at douby.. as usual rah was late.. *grumble*.. yeah.. wasted time & cash playing at arcade.. then went off not for a romantic dinner but to meet kevin..yeah then he pass her some stuff.. kk those who noe pls laugh & those hu dun.. well stay dun noe..ok then later went to ps to kia-kia.. then later went to buy some lousy alcoholic drink.. then the ladies got high.. yep.. then rah was like laughin at every single comment that we make.. she was like huh? hahahaha.. (endlessly) then later went to the food court to eat then went to send each of the sisters home... the end.. not!.. well my main pt is valentine's day is a day to espicially show our love, sincerity and how we treasure the person/ people.. well even for the free and single, try bonding wif ur friens on this occasion.. share their sorrows of life, their laughter that taste as sweet as honey.. well the flowers, chocolate, kisses and the mushy msg are good but the important thing is the personal presence that one gif to other.. so best in ur relationship attached couples or even married couple and to those like me who haf went through a rough patch in relationship wif opposite sex or not even attached but feel jealous on this day.. chill out wif ur friens.. not wif the alcohol unless u like me haf a strong restraint to not drink if all ur friens are drinking or else later all become clowns in city hall and tomolo wake up to see each other on newpaper.. haha.. anyway, to end it.. HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL who see this and i noe a bit late but its still valentine's day

Back From Hibernation or Running Away

2006-02-13T21:58:00.000+08:00

yeah im back and thanks to a sister in Christ i haf a brand new way to start everything.. okok.. enuf of encouragement and skip to the main topic my O level.

i got quite a bad result.. L1R5 of 28 and L1R4 of 18... anyway.. thank God in All things as Said in Psalms by David " i Will Praise the Lord ALWAYS.. His praise shall be continually be on my lips.. yeah so thank God for wat i haf and not wat i dun haf..

okok.. the posting of the course will come in 3 weeks so long sia.. bui tah han.. lol... anyway, heres my course selection

1) R13-business computing
2)R12-information technology
3)N61-Business Info Tech
4)R14- Biomedical Sciences
5)N59-Biomedical Sciences
6)N63-IT
7)R18-Business Application
8)R24-Sonic Arts

yeah your beta dun look down on me cuz u dun noe.. i may become the top student in that course watch out NP and RP.. here Esmond ComE!!

2006 1st blog

2006-01-01T20:44:00.000+08:00

welcome in NYD o f 2006!!( everybody scream *wooo*)okok.. so this is my first blog on the new year of 2006.. i noe.. its like 20 comin to 21 hrs into the first day in 2006.. but nontheless yeah wanna gif a rough stuff on wat i am going to put as my new years resolution and realli.. realli work on that for the year and make sure there aint any screw up like last yr.. u dun wanna noe.. well theme for the year: "NO LONGER I BUT CHRIST WHO LIVES" yep.. no matter in wateva i do.. i do it to exhalt and edify the body of christ.. well this is gonna seem tough in the beginning but as it says; once u write it down the battle if half won.. work on the other half to achieve it..

NEW YEARS RESOLUTION 2006

1) I am going to really break that bad habit of mine.. i noe.. but cant a guy keep a secret around here...Jezz.. will let ur noe once i broke the habit.. i am currently in the 3rd day of breaking the habit and realli the hand of God to break this curse of sin is already prevailant in my life.. i will keep the next 18 days in remembrance of this resolution and will update ur on my progress

2)well, i intend to go to the library at least once every month.. so bored.. no school.. soon the collection of the report card is gonna come and it will be me to sing auld lang syne to NTSS... looking back realli pity leaving this school.. the school where i was even place as a leader.. thank you NTSS NCC unit for this opportunity.. many may haf this appointment b4 but few haf realli be thankful for it

3) next on the agenda, gonna grow in spiritual maturity so that i will be an edifying instrument for the body of Christ in my new upcoming school which i haf no idea of. yep.. this resolution may seem a bit hazy but i reall wanna be not onli a living testimony at home.. but also in the place we are realli impacting.. the 7 pillars of society..though i may not be able to do so in business if i get a job or if the school term starts, well this is going to be an awesome experience to realli go out to reach the unsaved, the lost and confused wif a news to save, redirect and clarify these ppl that we come across.

4)no matter how tough it might ge.. i m going to pray 30min a day for the rest of the year at LEASTt!! yeah.. i mean if ur life is revolved around God, how can u not spare time for Him? it is like say u r a student and dun even study! i noe alot of ppl does that but that is juz a waste of ur life not to do wat u r assigned to do.. no matter one likes it or not.

5) i intend to learn one new song every week for the whole of this year.. that is memorise the chords and the tunes so that i can play without any paper supervision.. lol.. well that is wat real learnin is abt.. being able to grasp the knowledge at ur finger tips

6) gonna cut down on the money i spend on stuff so can spend more money buying stuff like a new MP3 and a PDA phone in one!... XDA ATOM!! yep.. i am gonna start saving soon and since i m onto this topic wanna also say some stuff.. well gonna save up $4 each day besides tithes and offering for things such as an iMac, a guitar at swee lee and not forgetting my PDA phone-- XDA atom!!!

7)gonna become a cg guitarist at the end of june.. want this to be my bday present to myself to be able to serve in the cg not onli as a person who gives forecast and find out ppl whereabouts.. but also to be able to play for the cg to lead them into a time of praise and worship and also for the thought to praise and worship God in more than juz lifting of hands, clapping singing and jumping around.. new way to praise GOD!!!

8)last but not least is to go to the gym every single week for an hour each time or at least run 3 rounds round my house the park's running track.. i noe i noe... alot of ppl will say so little ah.. but gradually will up it to not onli running.

this is my new years resolution and i believe that wateva i say and put my heart into will come to pass.. AMEN!!

tribute to my class

2005-12-30T19:42:00.000+08:00

tribute to my class
dun noe why nowadays feels lyke gifing tribute to all.. maybe i was a total nuisance to them.. dun worry i wun be in ur way for the next few yrs.. i think..( chorus of hurrays and weeping).. for all my frien i thank ur for well being my frien.. no matter the times we may spent is sad or happy juz wanna let ur noe that i njoy every bit of it.. ( unmoved hearts)... well thank espicially for ppl they has realli stuck by me.. jimmy, sam, andy, jp, kinson... well these r the ppl that r always in the crowd..but they are always there one.. juz find.. well then there is the group that "motivates".. the group where u cant spent a minute wif them without @!#$ appearing in their speech... but well.. i classify them under the strong motivators.. haha.. mentality shifted... well.. this in cludes kev, jq, yg, nel, alex, steve, and well u get the idea.. these ppl make going to school for some fearful but on the whole they are ppl who gives variety.. if the whole class all nerds.. no life in sch.. juz ppl u can get along wif.. well my class was made out of ppl in diff group.. the geeks, the think they so smart, the realli smart, the smart and dun study can get a1, the 'motivators' who gives a whole new meaning to the word bullies.. the lan gamers who always are in sch to discuss their dota techniques and maplestory latest exploits, the rippers of the net.. the ppl who go to school to talk abt nothing but how they got the latest songs for *cheap rates*.. no names for any of this or else later CIA and the FBI and the CID found my web say they i haf association wif them and demand to noe their names.. well i AM not saying!!then there is the born drama queen and the prom queen.. no matter what they are u simply juz love them for being who they are.. gals wif an attitude of a BRATZ.. either cool or sweet still makes life in school interesting.. ok then there is finally the normal.. the ppl who goes to sch for 2 reasons; the reason to " make friends and get all the A.s".. well this sums up the tribute to making E4/3 a place u wanna write abt for the future generation on how ur class has the same variety.i will end on the note of wat i think is the perception i get from each and single one( in register no) so sch type...well to all those in e4/3 may all u wanna be in the future which i hope is in the good light be great and impact and change society or even juz having a good life and retire to the background of society and folo the flow..

1) amy- norm
2)wanxin-my sis cant say much.. maybe v.gd lookin and a gd person to talk to?
3)hazel-cool kid
4)diane-model pupil.. sch prefect
5)fahana- gal wif a stong sense to achieve something big.. gl
6)shirleen-diff person i saw in pri sch..for sweet gal to kickass gal wif an attitude
7)sharlene-good looking gal wif a brain..who says brain and beauty doesnt mix
8)seraphina-a gal that has lotsa potential.. take time to think abt it on NYD
9)soon kheng-another cool kid...
10)zehra- brainy and hardworking..
11)michelle-good dancer and a gd communicator
12)kathe-motivator
13)andy-hardworking and play hard guy
14)kev-cool kid in class
15)weiyu-known as sex perv but actually is the most honest guy in class..
16)deepak- a frien indeed
17)alex-motivator+ joker
18)weilun- the person beside me.. no lah.. cool kid wif nice hair
19)an soon- lan gamer and gd frien
20)nel-motivator
21)me-ur noe..no need write
22)tian hao-brain
23)kinz-gd frien who is going away.. gl
24)nigel-motivators
25)weijie-gd bball person man
26)nigel-motivator
27)preston-motivator and nonsence in one
28)jing quan- @$!% is his vocab and punctuation
29)rohan-joker
30)steve-joker+motivator
31)chee png-joker
32)suan wee- cool and handsome
33)kathik- cool dancer
34)yu guang- man wif an attitude and a genius in the making
35)yong hwee- street smart kid wif a trend setting spirit
36)tick aun- the supa good frien u can haf
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CG appreciation

2005-12-28T23:43:00.000+08:00

hi.. this might be the last time we see each other in a cell group, the last time we will enjoy each other joke or "joke" and company.. the last time we may hate each other for the sabo and the criticisms we get.. but all in all it made us grow.. thats the important thing... kk.. so would like to take this opportunity the day be4 cg appreciation to do one thing.. to make sure that i be thankful for ALL the ppl that were part of my life..
first on the list.. BROTHER WEILUN... though he might see this or not.. i realli thought that i grew more than i ever in the area of being an adult and a leader than ever.. first of all, it was in this year that i was going to become a leader in my school.. like the bible says, no servant is greater than its master.. so in the fact that my school grew even by only 2 members is also to be thankful for.. also he was always there to guide me in the rite path.. even though some approach were not as gentle.. this is his first ever CG he ever led and this led to being fresh to everything.. even the fact that we are the ppl that comes up wif new problems every now and then besides the ordinary BGR and depression.. we went to not being commited in our prayer time, not willing to participate and get hype up over things.. these were juz tip of the iceberg of the troubles we go through.. for me.. it was a moment where i realised at the end of the year that how imp a leader is to his member.. a leader fall and the member goes dead... so that was how important it was to make this adjustment and teaching b4 i can safely pass my school duties and responsiblities to Hensa.. the leader is the max a follower can get.. so if u demand punctuality from ur members, u muz NEVER ever be late.. always early nv late! yeah.. so that was a rough but challenging year to face wif my leader this year.. though still some habits to change.. it is at least some bigger improvement.. like finally breaking through to reach out to frien.. not juz a call ppl.. its abt connection!
next on the list is my dear cgm ChanTong.. kk.. little is known abt this guy but hey he is always there at the front.. the effort he put in to gather forecast and all is simply not easy esp wif members like us.. can kill u juz to get the confirmed forecast to Bro weilun.. yeah..this man is a man of connection.. not that he haf a lot of lobang but he does, but the important thing is that he is a person that can relate to a leader and a member best.. he is like in most ppl good books.. hope u got lotsa good gifts for xmas from santa.. jkjk.. lol...thanks for all the rubbish talk u gave that change me from a rigid person to a easier going one.. i am like a brick.. cant flow one.. once try to flow.. became either a laughing stock or a lamer.. sianz.. but now at least beta..but still need improvements.. hahaha.. ok on to the next
ok the next one is my dear bro.. Sean... shock to see.. kk.. er.. dota days are over but unlike most friends i stuck around to play games wif.. Sean can be said to be like glue.. im kinda stuck like glue to him.. no nonsence thoght ppl.. i meant that i can really still relate even without bringing the topic of games up.. like just called him can talk trash then finally reaching the main pt i was calling him for.. asking if he going to HK for performance in jan 27-29... HK are comin for Hong Kong.. will earn the name Hongkee Killer.. like korean killer.. but think too old liao like bro boon say.. got UDM big deal.. get UCM- ultimate cowbell/ counter machine.. lol.. a concept of having a timing of a metronome heard in one's ear no matter what... this man has been the reason why i even intended to even try.. like the song for appreciation.. when u believe.. somehow you will.. u will when u believe.. alrite man.. then there is the joke of chasing each other on the MRT when we keep trying to see if the other person is on the train to meeting the person at kallang to meeting the person finally at prata shop.. ralen not ur fault mine.. sorrie sean..

next is the troop of ppl i simply luv hanging ard.. STRIKEFORCE.. i noe... straying from topic but special person to thank for keeping me as a leader and not a frien.. *drumroll* SARAH.. ok.. shock rite? gif me SoOoOoOoOoOo much problem how to appreciate rite? well with each trial comes a beta character, and wif each troubled member comes a person that juz keep u on ur feet and makes sure u fulfill wateva god has intended.. even if it means to haf problem aft problems till u get the mindset stabilised.. the mindset of each problem is a guide to keep u on track.. an opportunity to grow... yeah.. so much so that the idea of her problem hit me so hard that if i am to rite the whole thing in details.. can make into a 1500 word essay.. and i do not mean the kind where i repeat and repeat..thank you for being well.. you!!! you are so special in God's veri eyes and always remember wat to be called a christian is for.. a lover of Christ..nothing more nothing less... cuz love is the ultimate pushing force for all.. the power to share abt a amazing saviour u haf and a amazing news and not juz any good news from the bible.. for ur problems.. like i say and will say again, the problem will make u into a person where you haf good relations wif ppl even to a point of reknown communicator.. i dun mean to say that a fashion designer is not ur forte.. but that wif the exp u get in handling relationships, u can impact the models whose main aim to outlast out-'beautify' and out-'post' the competitors an explanation to live a life not of a career but of a christ centered member of a local church where beauty serves onli to propel you to do God's work to ppl in the high life society where the thought of a beau brings one of lust instead of love.. prophesy that u will become an excellent person in reaching out.. even when u think u haf reach the peak of ur ministry life... nv stop cuz this is a journey not a destination.. and i would say that the flaws that God has created you wif is sososo beautiful in His sight, no matter how 'ugly' u might think of urself.. and put on some self confidence in who u are.. not the physical but the flaws shines like a flower born in adversaries and winter.. they are the most beautiful, cuz it is the heart that really shines the brilliance of beauty out to a person accompanied by God's holy presence!well for all SF members including Daryl, Brother Boon, Jenifer and Ireneus, Luke u guys are awesome.. making the moments we spent in MTT be fruitful in both the things we learn and also in the things we treasure.. like friendship in church.. thanks you guys and may we do God and ourselves proud when we go into the marketplace of China.. HK to stomp and perform for the first time on chinese new year season!
lastly, i would like to thank ppl that has discipled me in all my life in CHC.. from brother Kevin to Sister veron to Brother Weilun.. thank you all once again for the time u sown into me..it will bear a fruit no matter how little time it was! it has benefitted me greatly!
well for today later CG appreciation.. it will not onli be a show but an event to treasure wif ppl we noe and truly love.. luv u all no matter wat happens and even if we dun see each other often next time.. we still will be contactable and noe that i am always there to help if u need!!!

blog

2005-12-26T19:55:00.000+08:00

sorrie.. so long nv blog.. no time lah.. cuz haf to prepare for lotsa stuff... dun worrie i will make it extra long for u.. haha.. kk.. btw.. stop working at Giant liao.. so sian.. then went to try to find other jobs.. first .. sean recommended to try jobdb.. sorrie i so noob till dun noe haf this site.. then later.. my parents help me find a job at bossini juz today.. ok.. so tomo we are prac for the cg appreciation.. it is gonna be a... secret.. haha... kk so we will be going to some1 house to prac.. then after that go down for job interview at JP.. hope some1 come wif me.. so sian.. then the christmas carnival is so great.. that i haf still coupons left over.. so kinda sian.. wasted money... yeah.. and i am going on a trip not literally to break a very bad habit.. takes 21 days so everything u see from now would be a countdown.. so cool.. confirm blooging now..kk.. that all for now.. bb

sick day at home

2005-12-12T14:19:00.000+08:00

so sian ah today.. woke up thought can try gettin a job but all i got was become pissed... i called 3 companies.. 1 say that i was not of age nvm... 2nd one said that will call me back when the person in charge return.. nvm.. but wat pissed me off is the last one.. it post in the ad... seeking clerk and admin assist and the requirement say to need to noe MS office, and email.. i thought why not.. call in.. turn out that this noob company... supa SL lah.. say that oh not of age experience.. i asked what exp.. say need to noe how to use MS office and email.. i say i noe like the... they say we not finding this kind of PPL!.. gasp... sucker company lo.. hope they find some1 real bad for the job.. see i m evil

5 funny facts on me...

2005-12-09T09:25:00.000+08:00

well.. this is a blog chain group that is going round.. simple game.. juxt tell us 5 fun facts on urself.. then put 5 names down at the end and they haf to continue it... quite bo liao but since i m free why not? ok here i go...
1) i used to be in a sch band...no not the music kind of band.. the singing kind of boyband gals go crazy over... well that was in my pri sch days.. so fan based lo.. in sch and surrounding schs...(i noe ur won't buy it without evidence but for all the Pri sch ppl in Nan Hua.. they will noe)
2)i was not the frail type in Pri sch.. supa hot headed( led by the crazy fantasy of Wolverine in X-men).. beat up someone who was 1.5m( hey we were in Pri 2, i was a mere 1.2m or something..or maybe .13M but 1.5m was tall)... landed him in the hospital after ripping the metal part out of the chair and bashing it on him repeatedly until my form teacher came and saw that guy unconcious)..
3)same thing repeated itself in Sec2, beat up Alex.. the supa tall guy in my class( why so much violence.. dun noe myself)actually ended up both got caning for beating each other... i thought its self defence wat...
4)i drink carrot juice.. i noe.. ur will like say.. its a veggie juice.. so siao ah.. i noe.. but juxt like the taste since my mom bought Pokka when i was 9, then i started liking the taste so much i bought the organic one.. look at my list of drinks and u noe i seems health concious.. drink 'fruit' juice like Snapple and carrot juice.. just like the natural taste of sweetness for fruits
5)for all u CHC members out there... i seem to be the least productive in my cg cuz no frien one.. but in my previous CG under bro Kevin, i was the type to c hu can bring more frien... was competing wif Diana.. hello diana if u see this...
ok on to sabotage time..
5 names are... ( drumroll*).Samantha, Alex, Joy, Cheryn Ann and Anna! sabo one .. i noe

2005-12-07T13:36:00.000+08:00

sorrie couldnt blog for a few days.. com down.. sianz... well first thing first... CHC is shifting to Expo.. not for good.. for a while,thinks its like 2 yrs.. pray that all CG will grow strong in quality leading to growth in quantity.. yippy!.. so totally cool to finally move to Expo... but the place there is still too small.. the Coffee Beans Stand is like the size of my storeroom.. how to provide service for 7000 members.. haha... anyway, the food court is v. ex and also that it is small.. smaller than the food centre at boon lay... anyway.. on to the next.. my mum bringing me to upgrade my handphone plan today.. no more sissy samsung Iressitable phone.. but manly Benq M315.. i noe.. ur will say, huh? simi lia the(whats that in Hokkien)... so i provided a pic for the curious minds out there.

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	You're alerted to an incoming call by a catchy polyphonic ring tone. A photo ID tells you at a glance who's calling.Just got a shot that you can't wait to share with your best buddy? Then do it-with the Quick-Access MMS feature.The M315 will make your mobile communications more varied and lively-and just plain fun!

shopping

2005-11-30T21:08:00.000+08:00

now i realli noe the power of a person shopping.. but b4 i get into that.. lets explore the earlier part of my day.. went wif daryl, shaun and bryan to marina square to eat... ate a veri gd BBQ chicken set for $5.5.. supa cheap lo.. its veri gd.. shld haf taken a pic wif it but sadly no cam.. (hint bday or christmas present)..then later went to SF the warehouse to take off ALL the equipment from bro boon van.. onli to find we needed 4 toms and 1 snare for tonite training... so repack and off we go to suntec.. turns out that when i reach city hall.. my frien onli at clementi.. i was like wat the... lol.. went to Swee Lee get guitar picks to replace the whole lot i lost.. or i think i lost.. then went back to city hall and went to walk from there to town.. supa long lo.. then finally agreed to take bus there.. took 111 there and walk to Plaza S'pore.. then walk on from there to our first stop...pacific plaza.. first time there.. somemore thought i noe all of Orchard.. think again esmond.. well then went to quicksilver™, flash and splash, mambo and some other store.. walk so much i reach home still pain.. aiya.. no nrg to blog liao...

the day of boy shopping

2005-11-29T19:28:00.000+08:00

today was the 2nd time i had a misadventure on the MRT.. thought live so loong is s'pore will definitely not b wrong.. guess again.. well onto it.. me and my frien.. lets call him A. well we r suppose to meet at redhill... or shld i say he is suppose to get on the train at redhill.. turns out he didnt get on.. then he called me and i alighted at tiong to wait for him.. he later took the train to tiong but he got off and i went on.. then later.. he called me and i alighted at tanjong pagar.. then took the train back to outram park.. then couldnt find him... cuz he say he wanna meet at the first cabin.. then finally found him waiting at the first cabin towards boon lay!... lol... cant stand it lo.. anyway.. we went to orchard to shop for a cheapo shirt.. dun ask me why... well we walked from like wisma to every boutique store... for guys i mean.. then later sianz.. change to ngee ann and repeat procedure... ended up at lucky plaza.. then i ask my frien.. u feeling lucky at lucky plaza.. turns out that he realli was... well.. walked pass the condom store and like frek out lo.. cuz it was nxt door to the shop we were going to and almost ended up in the wrong shop...well.. found a shop which sells shirt at 9.90 dollars but no size.. argh.. the horror cuz i still needed to meet daryl to pass him the money for SF shirt.. dun wanna make him wait for me cuz he haf PM that evening.. so yea... finally found a S size at that cheapo store.. praise God lo... supa good .. yep went to meet daryl and wasnt late a bit....BTW.. my hair is red.. dyed it yesterday.. use this...

BBQ

2005-11-29T00:07:00.000+08:00

the bbq today seems like a normal one.. till u attend it and leave wif fine memories of the place.. it was supa good as it was not onli a time to meet each other again.. but also a time to get to noe each other beta.. didnt noe Desmond play bball so well till todae... and MX too...ok the food was ok cuz really didnt haf time to really sit down for dinner proper cuz keep need to do stuff.. like send my disciples home and also play 2 rounds of bball.. pants.. so sianz but overall it was a lesson and a experience today.. lesson to noe how much food to prepare and experience about the time to set it like ours so as to prevent all the hicups along.. trust me there will always be one.. kk.. parents going overseas tomo.. so yeah.. com gaming all day... no lah.. still need to learn how to play guit proper and also learn hot summers by tomo.. so hard but Eugene caught it in no time... supa drummer man!

SF training

2005-11-27T21:58:00.000+08:00

sunday this week has been a tiring one.. firstly, started wif completely no friens at all.. sobs bohoo... but if one cant bring frien.. service is next.. well was at church like 0745 and needed to wait for sister shan for briefing.. well...then needed to go for zonal briefing.. resulting into a hell of a laughing time talking about someone ended up saying harry potter as happy potter... lol... cant stand it lo... btw.. the zonal outreach todae was hu killed the principal.. based on a blend of games like cluedo, amazing race and well Harry Potter..not happy potter...its a game where u go around the campus( sentosa) and find out whos the murderer of the principal.. at every room(checkpoint) a clue will be given.. not genuinely true or false... and the game is played like amazing race by running from one checkpoint to another doing task.. after that u move on... rofl(the)... well back to service.. supa cool wif CCC (christian city church) wif a v gd song leader.. Nickie Fletcher.. supa good lo.. yeah.. Pst Phil gives a real good word in season and also promotes and brought along all his fav books... didnt haf enuf to buy.. bohoo.. kk.. well then after game went to sf and that was juz supa fun.. turns out to be late due to some people*.. u shld noe.. and ended up not eating.. lol.. happy but tired.. some sort like OBS

Boredom creeping in

2005-11-26T14:22:00.000+08:00

boredom has taken its toll on me.. most ppl will nv agree wif me on this but trust me.. once u dun haf that much cash and u are at home with no reason watsoeva ... u will live in my shoes... ok.. enuf of pity party cuz maybe.. jux maybe.. i can start doing all the goals i set for myself during the o level period to do for in the holis... BLOG,TAG and not forgetting Testimonial ppl... i dun think there a term but hu cares.... i m going to blog like nv blog b4.. tag ppl blog when i see a new post... and gif every one in my 134 friendster ppl a testimonial...shld be enuf to last me till next week cuz maybe i m starting work nxt week.. todolo... im not that bad lah.. still will be playing MMORPG with my friens but on a later schedule... sorrie cant party wif ur... im in another world... anyway... found a new game known as RAN online.. nonono.. not running on the internet.. lol... its kinda violent cuz the 'monsters' which u attack in MMORPGare humans... making this a fav if ur a PvP maniac... join my world...its the dark dark one wif the crystal hanging on top... so fun!... its a cool game and it is free!!... foreva i hope.. thats what they promise... anyway..having a bbq on nxt mon... going to meet all the south ppl again.. actually onli 40.. sobs.. so little.. but nvm... still can haf fun.. my frien also wanted to opt to work wif me in the same company.. actually its my idea... but sadly she is onli starting work in Jan.. too long for me.. nd to clear building fund!.. and enjoy the rest of the holidays... breaking the bondage of boredom.. if there is one that is..!

Bored day

2005-11-24T20:28:00.000+08:00

todae is the most unfruitful day of my life! no enjoyment at all siah.. if this is how my holidays is going to be.. then i might as well be in school all yr round.really.. i rather use my brains in some way then to let it rot all the way like this... even gaming is called using ur brains...hehe.. undoubtbly... went to do some stuff for ppl.. like help get the house keys of seans house from him and help sis anne open the door cuz they hafing PM... turns out thats his dad beat me to his house and well.. sianz lo

Prom

2005-11-24T11:15:00.000+08:00

Prom... the day where everything of ur existence in school boils down to a single nite... for me it was totally unforgettably memorable... we started off on too high a key...( stripping and pole-dance juz dun fit in at the start)... well... dinner was there after this unfortunate high key setting..btw my hair is brown... yippy and boo... like my hair sorta... hafing identity crisis... the nite was greeted by ppl of all graduating classes going all out to show their stardom... hehe.. ok back to dinner... it was ok for a restaurant charging onli 35 bucks for it... we wun expect too much from budget like tat... felt so full cuz jux keep on piling ... 1st time nv go 4 2nd round... haha... well after that play lotsa gay games like dressing a model up... (unfortunate me)... as a gal!!! ah!!!turns into some gay fest more like a D&D... anyway... the MC also haf a hard time.. one student keep on kissing him and i dun mean a gal kiss the male MC... it's a guy to guy... with lipstick!..yep.. it was all fun but finally nd to bid farewell... turns out too later to take bus home.. cab again.. so sianz of cabbing...

2005-11-20T14:45:00.000+08:00

Concentration: the centre of focus... it get u anyway when u uses it... gets u nowhere when u dun use it... a concentration of fruit juice can "sweetened" u to death and a concentration of UV and light can blind u... the power of concentration was taught today by Pst Kong during s4 and boy was it a great message.. i mean look at Pepsi™ and Coka-Cola™.. the clash of the cola-s had Pepsi™ at the shorter end of the stick cuz they dun concentrate on the point.. Coke!... they, like hp™ invested huge amount of money into other non-related businesses and it let to process of painful suffering in the form of business.. Coka-Cola™ has a net profit of 3 times of Pepsi™ jus cuz they concentrated on the best stuff... coke... even when Pepsi™ has like 22,000 restaurant, MacDonald's™ beat them with only 14,000 restaurants... this seems too unrealistic but when u think abt it... the lame-man saying of putting ur best in whateva u do result into a success..espicially if u concentrate on ur strength...with the revelation God has provided as the lead key.

latest post ever

2005-11-19T03:40:00.000+08:00

cant believe im doing this juz the day after my chem is done.. went for CHC overnight prayer meeting and it was supa good... so good that i was sooo reluctant to leave.. cuz my cgl hafing her wedding at church tomo... luckily the recruitment drive is postponed to 2-4 dec...thank you so much to bro Boon and SF.. haha... cant see myself going on overdrive for another night... already 7 days without proper sleep can make me somewhat like a Naix.. Sorrie Pudge is not invited.. too fat... (dun hold anything against these people... every1 is created to be beautiful in their own way) anyway.. tomo dota training officially opens.. the floodgates of Lanning has nv been more real.. reason for this late post cuz i arrived at alex house at 330am and zhuo bou so blog lo...

The Day is Over

2005-11-18T18:36:00.000+08:00

FINALLY... Esmond is back To HIS new and beta life... (sorrie The Rock i use ur phrase)... im gonna pary man.. wohooo... Chemistry was a pie todae and shld not haf a problem getting an A for it... unless they moderate till i get a B... then i will tear them up myself...lol.. enuf on O now to find a job for my self... yes.. finally step over the barrier of always being provided for... can finally buy the Nano some1 has been wanting.. eat at marche on Christmas day and i dun mean potatoes but real lobster, stirloin steak and even salmon.. haha... hope will not get fat... but who cares.. get fat train in gym lo... still finally can buy the acoustic plug-in guit i haf been dreaming to play all year round.. yes even in O level exam hall when there is like 5min to go... haha... no more barriers and pressures to study and my 4month holiday is juz starting... btw.. v. vexed now cuz i dun noe where to go still.. but i hope it free up lotsa time cuz i intend to at least haf 2 ministry then.. My beloved StrikeForce and my newly founded Usher...also going star playing dota till my butt hurts from the sitting.. i hope not.. anyway gtg and njoy my new life..Ownage